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Let's see how this goes, shall we?
Where to begin? I guess at the beginning would be good, but man-oh-man there have to be some patient people out there to read it all. Perhaps I should do this in installments. Yeah, that's a good idea.
I'll call this particular blog "Part 1". It'll be a brief background of things more than a vent/rant.
I met my now-husband a long, long time ago.
....more and more lately I just feel like he married me because that is his nature, he wanted a wife to help take care of his children and run his household and that was his primary goal....in general he pays attention to me when he wants something or needs help with something...but I don't feel loved, or cherished or romance...this is probably why folks have affairs...at least during that time, you focused totally on each other, then you get married and it stops...
I'm just venting....and feeling lonely with a house full of people, ironic isn't it?
i was a bit leary about posting in here so i didnt get to meet as many of you as i would have liked, i also didnt get to post too many of my struggles. quite some time ago the beast stole my SS from his father and i. she then proceeded to take us to court because she wanted full custody something she hadnt even thought of before i was in the picture. my hubby was hit with a contemp of court and all kinds of htings after we refused to send my ss back to his mother because he was PETRIFIED....
I am so happy to have found this site. and have a place to vent...in a lot of ways i'm lucky, my SD says she loves me, she's a good girl with a good heart, but I resent her...she lives with us part time...and the older she becomes and the more she looks and acts like her mother, the more i resent her...I resent that she has her whole life in front of her and thanks to me working my ass off it's a good life...living between two homes she has the benefit of both...
So, summer visitation is over and the ex- finally is back on her visitation schedule. Just an fyi, we have custody of the kids cause she is such a mess she lost custody.
Anyway, so it starts out a mess as usual, she forgot to pick them up from school. School calls and they finally find her and she gets the girls. They are with her alllllll weekend! Unless she kicks one out, which is a regular occurence.
I am sorry that I have been absent lately I have been enjoying my pregnancy. No more morning sickness. HOORAY!!!! I have been shopping up a storm with my parents and ss. Who has been enjoying the fact that he will be having a new baby brother or sister in January. But there is the other issue at hand the BM, who still says that ss will be left out. I take him to ALL my doctor appts, he comes shopping with me. He helps pick out paint for the nursery, he evens gets to give he say in baby names( even the ones I don't what to hear).
And she's a little strawberry-banana! That is, she's jaundiced, but she's on the mend now. She had in-home photo therapy all last week and she's finally thriving, but it was a little scary for a while because she lost a whole pound and she was severely dehydrated while we were waiting for my milk to come in. She's gaining weight again and the doctors and nurses took excellent care of her, so all's well now.
...and that's a good sign, right? Actually, I think only the good die young; so according to my DH, I could live forever...but of course, so will he and my SS.
SD6 has trouble sleeping through the night. She goes to bed fine, but then wakes up and gets anxious. She comes in to our bedroom and wakes my husband (and by default me) up. He says 'it's okay. go back to bed.' This happens 4 or 5 times a night (we have her 3 nights a week). In the morning she says she's sorry she does it and will try harder not to. This has been going on for years.
To complicate matters, at her other house she shares a bed with her mother. She is not used to sleeping/being alone.
My SD13's mom lives with her parents (SD's grandparents). She has lived with them off and on for about a year. My DH has primary custody of SD, but during the summer, SD stays with BM every other week. During school, she only sees BM every other weekend. SD doesn't want to go see her mother, but does because the courts say she must. Her mother has a drug problem, can't keep a job (doesn't even really try to get one), and is very irresponsible (obviously).
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