SO...I am in this constant struggle to let Bm, hubbys ex wife, not get to me~after 10yrs of dealing with this I should be able to not let it get to me and upset me!! One little comment or text message and Im in a completely different mood, and I just beat myself up that I let her do that to me!!

Well today is Monday the first day back since he left again this time for 5 days, in which he hardly seen Derric let alone take a phone call from me!! Im not sure how he ended up coming back this time, I tried and to refrain from begging him to come home and well on Sat night he came over late after of course he went to the races with his family. Yes he invited me only though after I had mentioned that I would love to go sounded fun. I didn't! Aprox.

BM and BF went to mediation last Sunday. BM was 20 plus minutes late for the session she scheduled and did not even bother to call the meditor to tell her she would be late. BF wants joint custody and equal time with BS 9 months. The mediator asked BM why she wanted sole custody and her answer was because I am his mother. So, BF is his father. BM claimed she was sick for a week over leaving BS with BF for a week trip out of state. If it bothered her so much she should not have gone. I have never left my kids that long, ever.

2ndclasscitizen's recent post got me to thinking about the psychology behind why BM's always throw a fit and make such huge drama over the skid's clothing. It seems so childish to us for them to go apesh*t when we do something that seems so simple like washing the skid's clothes. Our SS's BM insists that all clothes come home with him to her house - even clothes that we buy. I think that by doing these things, the BM's are trying to make sure the kids "understand" that the NCP's house is just somewhere they go to "visit" but that they really LIVE at BM's house.