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If you've followed my story, you'll know why this is music to my ears: DH and BM are in a custody mediation today, submitting and discussing statement of issues, and BM has devoted some of her precious statement to ME (c'mon) and the complaint is in part that I won't allow her to hug me!!! And the mediator says to BM: "you have boundary issues."
THANK YOU VERY MUCH.
Sorry I've been absent ladies, it's been a long hectic week. I'll be online Thursday morning reading, responding, and then will give you an update ... but in the mean time ... I gotta say ... I am beside myself. Jacob called to talk to Erik tonight, and Andrea actually gave us an extra day with Jacob ... we get him on Thursday. That ... AND ... she has supposedly drafted an email to Erik that is an attempt to work together on things about Jacob. We are supposed to get this email tonight, but it has yet to arrive.
Help! 5YO SS has been a holy terror the last two days. Everything from screaming, "I want milk!" to burping and farting on purpose at the dinner table to to saying, "weirdo" and "stupid" after we've asked and told him many, many times not to. The demanding, bratty act has caught us by surprise and it seems like he's not afraid of anything we say or threaten him with. My husband came so close to spanking him tonight at dinner that I thought it was really going to happen... but, of course, it didn't.
I really would love to be "strong" and let my uncomfortable feelings "roll like water off a ducks back" but theres a bit of a power stuggle going on within me.
There's a dichotomy at work here. My mom raised me to stand up for myself - to not be a little mouse over in the corner living on the crumbs of life. BUT (and there's always a but...) good girls are supposed to think of other peoples feelings...bla bla bla.
I am always RIGHT about this stuff....So last week I spoke to sd and bb and explained that we would not be buying school clothes this year...however we would buy school supplies...as a matter of fact while I was discussing this with sd bb said "I will buy everything you need for school this year"...well I knew better than that we go through this every year...last year the dump bitch waited until the night before the 1st day of school and called hubby freaking out because sd did not have any new clothes so I ran out and bought 5 or 6 outfits then the selfish whore wouldn't even meet me to pi
I've never cried so much at a movie in my life with one exception - City of Angels. The entire time I'm watching it, I'm thinking, "If only it was that simple..." I noticed that they carried on in that movie in ways that wouldn't even be remotely possible in our real life situation.
The Dr figured out it was the ADD medication BS6 was on causing his fits so about a month and a half ago they took him off of it for 2 weeks and wow what a difference. He was unable to focus and was pretty hyper put no fits. So we go back after 2 weeks and they start him on a new med.
i feel so defeated. i am frustrated because i just don't feel like i can communicate with dh. i feel like anything i say puts him on the defensive. i am frustrated because sd just gets away with everything and works and manipulates her father like a puppet. dh just seems to condone all of it. when i express any concern about her behavior i am not heard.
I slept with EX last night. No excuses, no apologies. I just did and afterward I felt oddly...content? Like maybe it was closure or something?
I do not want to parent my BF's children. They have parents already, and I am not one of them. Specifically, I do not want to discipline them, their actions, or their behavior. I know this would open an entirely ugly and messy can of worms. It's a battle I don't care to fight.
How BF's kids act when he has them has nothing to do with me. Some of their behavior I find offensive, immature and rude, but hey...they're kids. More importantly...they're not my kids!
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