Tired of being understanding
I really would love to be "strong" and let my uncomfortable feelings "roll like water off a ducks back" but theres a bit of a power stuggle going on within me.
There's a dichotomy at work here. My mom raised me to stand up for myself - to not be a little mouse over in the corner living on the crumbs of life. BUT (and there's always a but...) good girls are supposed to think of other peoples feelings...bla bla bla.
The bottom line here is this: is griping about the same old situation really going to make a difference? It's still gonna happen in the future. BUT if I don't make my feelings known he's going to think that I'm OKAY with the situation.
The thing that is bugging me is quite small on the charts - BUT none the less - I feel like I'm wearing Harry Potters invisibility cloak around this house sometimes!!! I want b/f to know I'm pissed and not happy about him going to b-day dinner for adult son & play happy little family with his ex & kids. When does that crap ever end??? It just chaps my hide.
Of course the only reason any of this bugs me is because the ex will be in the same room with him. haha. I feel so petty right now.
No - I can't go to family functions - that would mean that I exist and ex - wifey would get upset - in turn upset the kiddys. good lord.
Thank you ladies for letting me vent. I luv you all