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Well I'm sure all of you can guess, my wonderful little world has been crashing around me for the last day. Why else would I return to rant about my life, right?
I have 38 days left till my due date. My pregnancy is going awesome. I have been healthier then ever before and I just love being pregnant!
Me and Dh have been going to councilling and it has helped alot. My own personal councilling has helped me out alot too.
Now for the last bit of my life....
SD and BM.
In a few weekends, BM and I will be at a bridal shower together at a restaurant - it is the FIRST EVER function we have ever been to (literally having to be in the same enclosed room) at the same time. The bridal shower is being thrown for SS26's fiancee'. Her mother & BM sent me an invitation, which I hesitantly accepted (after discussing with BF and him feeling that I "belong" there for his son's sake).
I bought my kids a $200.00 swimming pool,not huge but big enough for all of them to cool off in it...SS posted today on his Facebook,He was "Chillin in his pool" and drinkin' vodka...God I hate him and I wish I could afford vodka,I probably could if dipshit would pay rent,he's such a jackass.I wanna put itch powder in his underwear,and then lace the calamine lotion with turpentine.
Well I hope this showes the GAL what is really going on. SS13 has now missed another visit. My H talked to the GAL today and she told him and his mother that SS13 needs to be coming for his visits and if not she was preparted to have him removed or put into foster placement as a consequence. SS13 gave the GAL this week this whole sob story about how he "supposedly" does not like me and that I am mean and abusive but could not give her one example. We know it is his mother per the therapists (5 total) that have been working with.
So the chances of SD14 coming for the weekend are slim, I'm sure SS11 and SD12 will come. Me and DH were talking about her today and he said that's it, he doesn't even want her to come anymore. I know that SD14 saying she doesn't want to come over anymore is killing him inside, and the best way he knows to deal with it is to disengage. It hurts me to see this happening. SD14 has been driving us nuts lately with the lies and failing grades and stealing, but we still want a relationship with her. DH is hurt right now, but doesn't know what to do.
I have made an observation about BM's and SM's. It seems that it is a near obsession in some cases. As hard as it is to deal with when you have a difficult situation, it seems that this constant fighting, hatred, jealousy, and childishness totally runs their lives. Why let someone who is insignificant to you completely contol your life?...that is exactly what they want. I can't imagine being so miserable and stressed out. I worry about some of you and how stress can totally make you ill. Honestly if you could work some kind of truece with the BM/SM you should do it.
The wretched ex calls today and informs DH that she has made an appointment for SS to get braces. Not a huge deal, SD already has them, the EX is on state health insurance with the kids so there's no cost to us. We are fine with him getting them.
Thinking about this made me very sad:
I was telling myself I have the cutest baby in the world.
I told DH I have the cutest baby in the world, and, well, I'm allowed to say it because, heck, it's the only baby I have.
Then I thought about how he can't share that same feeling with me about our child.
Because he has 2 others, and he probably thought it for HIS first child, but after that, well, no one can take that away from his first child, who now happens to look very much like her mother.
And she is absolutely right. My SS has been at my parents for the past week helping prepare for an RV trip that my parents are taking all of the grandsons (my SS-17, Nephew 13 and Nephew 8 ). My neice is taking a trip to NYC with her Mom instead of going on the RV trip while my Bro heads overseas for work.
My niece's two friends (16) have visited several times and my 17yo SS would rather get goofy with my younger nephews than interface with my neice and her friends who are more his peers.
Since I grew balls and stood up for myself to all of them!
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