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BF is getting ready to start with the custody evaluator and together we are getting stuff together to give him/her. BF requested SS1 medical records for the past year. The came in the mail today. I was shocked when I read them. SS1 is being treated for asthma, has had 3 ear infections (we knew about 2), has a nebulizer, etc. Back in July BM offered BF an overnight for his brother's wedding. According to the medical records the day after she made this offer, she took baby to the doctor because he was sick and had been for several days.
The SDs have arrived in all their glory. They are back to once again, remind me just how flippin wonderful they are (like I could forget)!!
I thought that maybe I should update my life since my last post. Christmas was horrible as you may remember, but it has since gotten much better! I can't remember how much I posted last time, so I'll start from where I think I left off. The saturday after Christmas, DH asked if we could discuss SD16 moving back in. I was shocked at first, but the more he spoke, the more I understood. I told him the only way it would EVER happen is that she MUST agree to show me respect 24/7! I would no longer tolerate ANY type of disrespect in any form. That included MY RULES!
Life has been so crazy and hectic that I haven't even had time to log onto this site! SS (10.5) has become a total nightmare. He lies constantly and while I feel guilty, I've grown to absolutely HATE this child! He has accused me of hitting him -- I've never laid a finger on my DH's 3 children except to give them hugs and pat them on the back. This child is just an evil little mongrel! He accuses me of making fun of him. All of this started when at 10.5 he decided he wasn't going to wipe himself or wear underwear anymore. Ughhh! How gross can you get!
Is that normal? I have been with H since SS was about 3. He is now 8. When he was younger and we first got together it was difficult because of the whole guilt parenting by H but H got that under control real quick after about 6 months so things have been good up until about the last 6 months are so. Don't get me wrong things are not bad they just seem harder.
Well, the drama of the christmas pickup finally came to a head this past weekend.
Just a reminder - My DH was supposed to get sd at the pick up point from BM on 26 Dec. The BM strong armed him to driving all the way (3.5) hours to get her - because she flat out refused to follow the court order. Hell who was going to make her. It was the morning after christmas.
OMG - Monday (today) is switch day and this is supposed to be BMs week - but guess what she called and said she couldn't take the skids because she has no transportation - car broke down. She got me. I got to be honest and tell you all I am really going through it. SD is so hateful and steals I am in constant worry over what is she going to take next and H will not will only get mad at me if sd does something bad.
OK, it's the sunday b4 xmas and usually we make the trade of my SS9 around 5 with BM. My hubby had to leave at 4 to go deal with something at work and I asummed that he would have told BM to pick up SS early but there was some mis-communication between hubby and I and he did not do that. Also my grandma is sick and in the hospital. I am close to her and was visiting her everyday. So my hubby and I are disgusing the fact that I didn't know I was going to have SS after he left and was upset because i wanted to go to see grandma.
I hear it coming...and it's constant calls today-so constant I could barely get the bedding washed or go to the P.O. The self-pity, I don't like my life, I hate my job, I don't feel well over and over and over and over again.
I feel the crash coming-I can hear it in his voice. And no matter how sweet I try to be, nothing I say can change it. And of course, he's now due for a few days off...he'll be home right in the midst of the emotional drop.
I should have known walking into this 3 years ago that this was going to be a bad set-up. The day he bought the youngest SD a toy to "get her to stop crying" should have been a huge warning sign. He stopped at walmart while we were all in the car because he couldnt get her to stop crying and bought her a 75 dollar toy. Guess what? It worked... and I should have run that day, but I thought maybe over time I could talk to him about things like that. BIG MISTAKE.
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