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DH and I got married at City Hall a while back, and we've planned a wedding party to celebrate in May. SD5 is over the moon excited about being a flower girl, and has been growing her hair long for months in anticipation. BM cut her hair really, really short last week. SD was crying about it this weekend and kept asking me if it will be long again in time for the wedding (it won't, but I kept telling her it will be perfect and beautiful).
OK this is totally off subject but what do you think about a DH who keeps his phone locked? Is he hiding something, and why would he get mad when you question him?
This weekend DH went to pick up his bike that he lent to his nephew for a month or so, it was gone. We then found out it should be at SIL's house with his other nephew. Nope not there either. So SIL went to the house that his nephew had been renting at a few months ago and the owner said the garage was broke into and the bike was stolen...UGH. So nephew is buying DH a new bike. Well during this conversation, SIL brought up that she had some of SD's toys, baby book, etc. that BM had left when they moved out of SIL's rental house. She said that she also had some pictures for SD of BM and DH.
Why do I let things that have NOTHING to do with me bother me so much? If it doesn't bother DH....why should I stress over it??? This goes back to his ungrateful daughter of course. DH has not seen her since Christmas (for the whole hour she came to see us) and ONCE AGAIN....she was in town where WE live this weekend(she lives 2 hours away) attending something for DHs ex that would have been her SM over 10 years ago for maybe ONE WHOLE YEAR!!!! Did she bother to call DH and let him know she was here???? Of course not!
I tried to disengage, but now it is probably too late. My SD14 decided that since she is now 14 she and mom have been researching for her to choose where she lives. There is a long story to this. I will try and be somewhat brief. She and her mom have been lying to my husband about several issues. Apparently she has been dating a boy for the last few months She has been told countless times no dating until 16. Mom told her to not tell her Dad. We found out and all hell has broken loose. She was with a friend for Spring Break and came home and told this to her Dad.
I'm tired of feeling angry, irritible, and resentful all the time. I've been going to individual counseling. My BF and I have been talking about things...we've talked about going back to couple's counseling but I feel like I need to decide whether I want this relationship before we go back.
I'm trying, and my BF says he is too...although he says he thinks he can fix things then says "maybe it won't be enough" "I can't just change things (his parenting of SD) overnight" "SD is my top priority".
Lots has happened since my first blog.
I'm so glad I found a place to vent, ask questions and get advice.
A little about me:
I recently moved in with my boyfriend. I moved from PA up to MA. I have a chronic lung disease so when I moved I took the plunge and went out on disability. I am currently waiting to be approved for SSDI (social security).
Living in the desert means super hot summers - okay that one is obvious - dry, chafing, crack your skin winters and also early spring and late fall seasons. We have our own beauty here ... yeah, yeah, green trees and leaves are nice but I love the deep, red sunsets and how the mountains cut through our city into the dusk skyline. I love how there isn't a breath or life but then you see a red yucca or a cactus with a HUGE red flower on it to brighten up the barren landscape.
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