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I'm taking back my space, my sanity and my sympathy!
The estranged SD16 met with DH this week after leaving our house without notice and while watching 3 small children, almost 5 months ago. If you didn't read my post a while back, please let me remind you that she was watching 3 small children at 10PM while DH and I went to my Mom's house because she had passed away unexpectedly the day prior! I used to feel sorry for this kid having a PAS mom and all. Not anymore!
In fact, I haven't seen or heard from her since I sent her the email. If you read that email, you'll remember I gave her an opportunity to apologize and change her behaviour. Evidently she'd rather just stay away, than own up to her actions. Which is fine by me. She'll be 18 in May. I've told H that when she reaches 18 she is coming off of my auto insurance policy. It's Time for her to grow up. H can go see her when he picks up SD14, who is going to spend the weekend here.
So I said earlier that I was really sick of the sight of my SD8. She lives with us FT and the socio completely screws her up after a night with her. Anyway this contributes to my anxiety and loathfulness toward her. Lately it's been bad, I just want to move away.
BM actually got SD last Thursday for her overnight possession. That was the first time in four weeks.
Then yesterday she called to talk to SD, and DH asked what the plan was and BM acted surprised, like she had not planned on getting SD. DH told her we were going to tour a school for SD to maybe go to kindergarten later this year and invited her. Then said she was going to come get her, but would call us back to let us know how and when she would get her.
My FH always asks me if I want to go with him to drop off "baby". In the beginning he basically begged me to go..hey fine with me-shows me he's not hiding anything..but now that so much has happened with BM,etc. I can't stomach going there anymore.
So FH goes yesterday after picking up SS5 from school to pick up "Baby". Of course SS5 has to go into house (Ms. Piggy always gives him snacks,etc). It's never just a stand at door pickup leave when SS5 is with FH.
Ok this weekend we are having FH family down, it is FH birthday and this will be the first time his family has been to our house. Ok so the issue is, I think Unibomber may place a call to FH to see about coming over. Now remember he has been nothing but a jack ass to his dad - called his dad terrible names, treated his dad like a POS. so we told him until he apologizes he is not welcomed at our house.
Okay, so her name isn't really Ursula, but she bears a striking resemblance to a certain character in my favorite Disney movie...Anyway, I thought that she could sink no lower, but I was wrong and the BM is at it again. Neither I or H have given her any reason to be a witch with a capital B lately, (like she needs a reason) but I guess she doesn't need a reason to act crazy and evil...
Biodad filed a motion for a new hearing...
I am just not ready to go thru this again.
I just don't think I have what it takes. He is not paying child support and my son goes to therapy twice a month. I pay for it all. Now more attorneys fees on top of the ones he never reimbursed for even though he was ordered.
I am so, so sad tonight. 
How do all of you women do it??? SD8 just got back from school after a night of staying with the BM (socio). I don't even want to look at SD, I don't want to even hear her voice or have her in my presence! How disturbing is that, I feel anxiety, I want to lash out, is this normal?? I don't even want her here right now.
I just overheard SD say what time the BM is picking her up tomorrow. What the hell!!??? I don't think so, we did not discuss this time and what is happening. I hate my life right now. I really do. Sorry for ranting...
I think I have finally found the answer to peace in our house. I have disengaged from SS20!!! or am trying..
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