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Last night I was having trouble sleeping, but I noticed that I was still calm. Usually my insomnia makes me angry. Since I work nights, I get so little time with my family. I get so little time to split between my girls, my BF and his kids... and my BF! LOL
Last night I curled up next to BF and just marveled in the fact that I was content to just be next to his warmth. That all the kids were snug in thier beds happy with full bellies of dinner that I made.
A family. It makes me so happy.
I need another point of view, my SS12 is violent, cruel, selfish, and destructive!! The boy just threw a tantrum and broke the plate glass door out of our store($1000 in repairs) he has broke 4 more windows at home,broke doors, broke appliances,destroyed the other childrens toys,ripped down curtains,stabbed walls, kicked holes in walls. Not to mention pushing around my 4 year old, and saying things to my 9 and 7 year old that are sooo cruel! and the last time I slapped him for those bad words direceted at me last winter, he pushed me on the floor...
I'm not going to even bore anybody on here with anymore details, but I just think that it's pathetic that I can't even be happy in my own home anymore. I don't even want to be there. I'd rather work overtime, or take all the kids except for my ss anywhere but where he is. I feel worn out, beat up, stressed, depressed, and just plain sick and tired of that little bastard getting away with it all. I really want to thank all of you who have taken the time to give me advice in all of these matters, and who have listened to me whine like there's no tomorrow.
BF n I r having a bday party for his son at a local amusement park...which I have planned by myself however BM is insisting on coming 2 the party even though she refuses to pay for half of the party. Little does she know she is paying half one way or another...her big child support check, which is ultimately her "paycheck" will be less after her son's party.
So... The divorce is currently on hold because DH is in the process of filing for bankruptcy...another story. During the last drop-off BM got so angry with DH that she punched the hood of his car. The car is only 5 months old, and I don't know if she knows the car is both of ours. She didn't do much damage bur she realized what she did and asked if there was damage and if he was going to file another RO. After speaking to his attorney, she said not to do anything at this time mostly because no civil action can be brought up during his bankruptcy.
Ive been away from the site for awhile super busy and super stressed and super frustrated with being the second wife, step mom, DIL, etc....So I am wishing I could afford a second home but we can't even afford the one we have. I would love a home for me, my two boys and our dog for us to go to when the skids are here and driving me crazy. It would be a lot nicer than being holed up in my bedroom with my two boys the whole time they are here because i can't stand to be around them right now, and with good reason but i wil get to that another day.
DH is out of the hospital. They let him out yesterday. He's been okay, but very restless. He's tired, but not sleeping to much. He got on the scales and I was shocked to see that he has lost 30 pounds. My goodness, 30 pounds. That's alot. His stomach is still swollen from the sickness. I bet by the time all the swelling goes down he will have lost 40 pounds. The big man that I married is all little now, it's scarey. His appetite is coming back though, he ate good tonight so I'm hoping after a month or so he'll start to put some weight back on.
We have been having a couple of good but stressfull weeks, we have a combined family with 6 kids, 3 are mine, 2 are his and 1 is ours, and we just opened a new business, and it is a very busy time of year for us(were butchers)I did not need to deal with this!!!
Not since his last visit with his mom did SS4 ever disrespect me. We allowed her to have him starting Friday morning until Sunday afternoon. Normally she only gets them for 24 hours start Saturday at noon. One thing we did learn is that she told him he doesn't have to listen to me. But he is sure learning quickly that the time out chair is not a fun place to be when he decides to do what is BM says he can do. Yes, we have had numerous talks about following rules in our home and that the rules are different in each home.
The past weekend was a getaway weekend for DH and me. We planned it months ago (on a weekend when we didn’t have SSons) and even took Friday off of work to get an early start. We stayed at a lodge 5 hours away from where we live.
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