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I really think that I finally can say that I GIVE UP!!

nofear74's picture

I'm not going to even bore anybody on here with anymore details, but I just think that it's pathetic that I can't even be happy in my own home anymore. I don't even want to be there. I'd rather work overtime, or take all the kids except for my ss anywhere but where he is. I feel worn out, beat up, stressed, depressed, and just plain sick and tired of that little bastard getting away with it all. I really want to thank all of you who have taken the time to give me advice in all of these matters, and who have listened to me whine like there's no tomorrow. My ss has just become too much for me to handle, and my wife can't understand why. I just want to slap her and tell her to open her stinking eyes, but I won't do that. I'd also like to take some of the advice that I've gotten on here and beat my ss, but that won't work either because then I'll just end up in trouble. So anyway, hopefully the next time that I get on here thing won't be as bad because I've either had enough and thrown out my wife and ss, packed my sh*t and left myself, or my wife has wised up a little bit, and finally sent ss to his dad's for good. She doesn't seem to understand that he needs to be there, and that he's not going to get beat by his dad if he behaves which he does when he's there. I would beat the kid too if he was my kid, and that is coming from a man who considers himself to be a decent Christian man, or at least I used to. Anyway, thanks again and God bless you all out there!!



livinthedream's picture

Ive had many days where I didnt want to come home at all either. Ive spent many days in my room...just doing my own thing. Its a tough situation. One thing that comes to mind when I felt so alone with the whole messy situation is that I have a place to come to here where kind & generous spirited people will understand me. Its unfortunate that you are at your wits end...but that is usually when the light is about ready to come in to provide the grace you seek.

nofear74's picture

Thank you for the advice. Since I left that blog, things have really gone downhill even more. My wife says that she is no longer going to be a mother to my children, or a wife to me because she gives up on us all...but she is still going to stay at the house with her son(apparently so he can continue to be the little jerk that we all know he is!) I told her that if she really feels that our marriage is over, and she insists on staying at the house, that I'm going to have to move out. I love my wife, and wish that she could see that, but all she sees is that if her son doesn't go, I'm going to make him leave, and I guess the thought of losing her son is more painful than the thought of losing her husband, and stepkids. I'm so hurt and confused right now! Well, anyway, once again, thanks for the advice, and now I guess that part is solved even though I feel like my heart is being ripped out of my chest. Just out of curiousity, why are you considered "the world's most evil stepmom"? I'm asking because maybe with my wife I'm seeing things that aren't there, or not seeing things that are there. Can you give me some insight? I feel that my wife has come a long way in her step parenting, but she still does things that make me wonder sometimes how much she loves my kids...not IF she loves them because I know that she does, but just how much?! Thanks again, and take care!

Steve Shafer

buttercup123's picture

You need to get out of there. I'm sorry you hurt so much. It's time to leave.