I would just like to thank Kidsaplenty for the advice - My SD12 is going to a party tonight that will finish at 11pm so I asked my BF if he would be up for a meal and then we can collect SD12 after - RESULT he said yes! I might be able to have a chat with him as well about stuff going on in my head in a neutral surrounding. THANK YOU xxx

Well I decided to just keep writing, and if people I know read it oh well. I will probably still delete things out after awhile though.

Anyhow BM has a son she had with the man she was cheating on my fiance with. He is a bit over a year i think. They are currently going through a massive custody battle, and she claims he abused him to the point that he is now going blind...apparently from being hit in the head/eyes. I have no idea of any of this is true, its just what she has told fiance.

BM signed SD10 up for soccer.......HER decision, no discussion with us at all. BM got pissed that we are making her pay the WHOLE $60 for this - ha, go figure. (we paid $140 for softball)

So this past Saturday was the first game. I had been asking for a copy of the schedule since last Monday. I heard every time I asked "mommy forgot, she will give us one tomorrow". I quit asking after Thursday. Sometimes I think BM will purposely not give me the things I ask for just to get on my nerves, so I will NOT ask for another schedule.

So I dragged my tired cranky butt to the mailbox today, up the hill and through the rain *heh*, thinking about all the tedious things that must be done today, when I open the mailbox and find a strange envelope. It's addressed to Mr. and Mrs. Snarky, written in a child's handwriting, from SD's elementary school. Already forgetting my woes, I open the letter to find this: