I feel about 100% sure another poster already made this the subject line  a topic so I don't remember exactly who created the created the blog so I'll give credit where it's due to whoever it was.

I have been MIA and not able to blog in quite some time. My last post has some background. Just going through a big life change career wise that took on an unexpected curveball. Been occupied with saying goodbye to my previous place of employment that had its own kind of grief to process. Plus worry about making ends meet while job searching and getting establishd someplace new.

The stress of interviewing and trying to get some kind of soft landing, plus other personal non step related issues thrown in between has been a hell of a lot. 

This was something I had mentioned in a comment but thought I'd elaborate now that the day has come and gone, so might be time for an update..

I dont know why I get so nervous and anxious before having to go to MIL/ DH's aunts for Christmas Eve, knowing that its more than likely that SD was physically a no show once again as per usual.  Thats the thing, knowing that there is always a possibility that these Skids are out there and capable of turning up. Someway. Somehow. bullshit in tow.

Sharing some insight while researching for myself. MY SD30  has shown some of these per my experience with her, ,,even though she is more a covert narcissist, Some of the signs are there, I thought this might also apply to some of your SKIDS and BM's especially since its Christmas.. To be clear my SD hasnt given me a gift in years, IF she did, these signs would apply. These same indications are likely to come out if I had gone out of my way to give her one..not just for Christmas, ,,but has occured if I ever showed her one crumb of kindness...