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You may be his wife, but you are replacble dear. His children are not replace-able nor are they dispensable......
I stole this comment by SpunkiDoolittle2 from another blog because it's along the lines of something I've actually been thinking about lately.
I have been planning a short trip (4-5 days) to New Orleans for the Acadiens Festival in October for BF and I. I estimate it will be about $2,000 in total. I sent BF a text letting him know. I never heard back from him, but he's usually busy so I didn't think anything of it.
Things I used to love to do...I don't really care if I do them or not. I don't look forward to anything anymore. I hate the weekends because there is always so much chaos with having anywhere from 4-7 kids there (FSD friends are always there and a lot of times her 1/2 brother and sister). I'm sitting here at work almost in tears just thinking about the weekend. It is almost planting season (I work for a farm machinery business and this is our busy time) so I think I'll just work all day Saturday and 1/2 day Sunday to escape if I can.
SO had a weird conversation with me a couple of nights ago. Told me, he really just doesn't want to be a father most days. Went on to tell me that he's tired of being being made to feel worthless unless he becomes 'the wallet.' Then he said, 'they're obviously right about me being a bad father. They never want to spend time with me when it's just hanging out talking or doing stuff around the house. It must be that I'm a bad father, if I wasn't, they'd want to be with me more often.'
BM likes secrets. Her secrets are her form of control.
The only problem is that to keep a secret one usually has to lie.
BM has secrets with SS9 that SS13 doesn’t know about; so SS9 is lying to his brother to keep his secrets with BM.
BM has secrets with SS13 that SS9 doesn’t know about; so SS13 is lying to his brother to keep his secrets with BM.
Both SS9 and SS13 tell us the secrets they have with BM but then ask DH and me not to tell the other brother.
SS got pinkeye. BM took him to doctor, informed DH it's $XX. Then to the pharmacy, and then called to insist DH call and pay the bill at the pharmacy - $XXX. I don't know what exactly was said or went on, but DH was working, didn't get home til 11pm and is super busy with a deadline for shipping his stuff today and apparently didn't have the time to call to pay. Why can't she just pay for the medicine and DH will pay her back?? I'm wondering if she let SS go without medicine until DH can pay... jeez, I can just imagine the earful the kids would have gotten about their father!!
I'll miss FDW, but not the skids so much. I just got back from a business trip so that was a nice break as well.
One more week unti my lunch meeting with a guy who will hopefully give me the career opportunity of the decade. If I get this, I won't be able to work from home anymore but maybe that will be a blessing in disguise. That would mean then that we would have to hire a babysitter during the summers and I won't have to put up with SS11's unmitigated BS lying. The kid seems to be getting worse.
Well last night is the first time I have seen any of the kids.Since the oldest and youngest said what they said. The only one who acted the same was the middle child Nataly. The little boy started to act the same after a while.It was at his boyscouts banquent and you know it felt like when I first started dating him.
:O Ok I am supporting him! He is in 8th grade, going to be a freshman this Aug. I guess he doesn't understand that HS is alot harder. The school tells the kids to aim high and starts them all set out for the scholars Diploma. Thats setting them up for failure and is going to dis-courage some beyond belief. Did they ask us before they set him up for this? No!! Did they look at his report card before this? No! He has 4 Fs right now and these counselors have talked all the new coming students into reaching to aquire the highest possibilities. This semester has been horrible for him!
I have been a SM for more than 13 years, but since my DH and I dated for 4 years prior to marrying, I count it as 17 years. When we started dated, my two SS were 3 & 4, they're now 20 & 21, and both in college. They're great kids, but no one is perfect and we've certainly had our moments. As for the BM, she has always lived within 15 minutes of us, has shared custody (she had them Sun-Wed, we had them Thurs-Sat, every week unless we were traveling), and has always been in our life. She still is.