We were at Walmart yesterday and as we were walking out this Guy was using those scooters for people who can't walk that great. So anyway the door greeter asked him what was wrong with him and he said his knee hurt. The door greeter told him unless he has a cast or crutches or something to that effect he wasn't riding it and to park it.

As he was walking off I noticed this Guy was walking great as if nothing was wrong no limp no showing of pain on his face nothing. He was walking normal.

Im tired... really tired... After BM made her usually effort after 4 days to butt into mine and my bf's time bf seemed to nip it in the bud. She of course got mad and blamed me called names so on and so forth... After chatting with him about he assured me it would be taken care of but he wanted to wait until he had to talk with her again, on the next trade off day. I was so happy and so proud, I knew BM was not getting the attention she wanted. Then BF went and confirmed weekend plans that had already been confirmed the next day. I feel horrified, let down, unloved, and like a third party.

Right now BF and I are in a bad place. The drama and fight started yesterday when his precious ones were here (duh!!!) When they are here, there are always tensions (on both sides) and irritations (on my side, not sure how they feel, not that I care). The fight got so bad that I am pondering leaving again and of course the "I am bending backward to make you happy" speech from him surfaced as well. And of course the "I love you but I would have to let you go if you are not happy here, just think about when or if you want to go" talk.

I think this sounds horrible, but at least I am being honest. These last couple weeks without sd have been good. My stress level has been better and I feel there is a lot less tension in the house. SD called FH last night and asked if she could go see a movie with him on Sunday (without me of course). On one hand I was happy to see the two are making progress and going to spend some time together. I am also glad that she doesn't want me there, because right now I really don't know how I would be around her.