... just need my StepTalk peeps to come march me past the denial (my inner 5 year old still coming up with butterflies & rainbows hopium wishes that this was all a bad nightmare...) and into concrete action toward Freedom from Toxic B.S.
OMG this cracks me up! Sharing with all the fabulous ST peeps as my 1st OT blog. Enjoy!
... doesn't mean I need to say it. Me emotions are raw & the holidays are HERE, so I'm going into "Let-the-Goodtimes-Roll"-mode and try to cruise thru each moment focused on what I'm grateful for & doing what I need to do. Taking the Next Right Action. Staying in TODAY & not Future-Tripping.
... from SS19 living here, disrespecting our home, lying to me and DH in our home, coming home high & with his still-illegal-at-his-age weed stash, not cleaning up after himself or in any way contributing to the household upkeep (or even his own laundry and personal hygiene!), manipulating for money and rides, etc.
Happiest Friday to all you StepTalkers!
One week ago yesterday prayers were answered and my DH 100% backed me.
... is what SS18 said as he left our house with gifts yesterday. That was his passive-agressive pissing match challenge to me, step mom. His dad kicked SS18 out of our home in late August (read my past blogs for the details) and last week I told DH I am not willing to let SS18 move back in.
Sorry SS, NOT HAPPENING. That is all.
... except I won't "let" him, even though he's willing to go into $100k debt for anything I want!
Yes folks, that is the arguement. I am ashamed I haven't already separated accounts because DH is obsessed with this sports car and watching numerous YouTube vids about it. It starts at like $55k and DH wants to trade in our almost paid off vehicle and finance the rest. Because, "we can afford it" BUT, if I want to separate accounts, then he CAN'T afford it.
All these are on my mind. I've been avoiding talking to DH about anything because it all comes back to: is DH seriously going to try to have SS18 live here in January (assuming SS is driving, insured, enrolled, and attending community college by then)? It's now been two months since DH kicked SS18 out, and I really REALLY like not living with SS.
So yesterday SS had DH pick him up to come "clean" his old bedroom (the one he lost when he got kicked OUT by DH one month ago, as detailed in my prior blogs). I was in the kitchen & got a lukewarm "Hey StepUltimate" before SS went into his old room. Based on the vibe, I quickly turned on some AC/DC "For Those About To Rock" and cranked it up enough so I wouldn't hear the b.s. DH went in and a minute later, and they both came out. "Going driving already?" I asked, but DH said SS wanted to be taken back to BM's house. Okay...
DH came home from work a little bit ago and is bummed I cleaned SS18's old room. It's still not done - tons of dust & filthy floors, more clothes to store & other clothes to donate, etc. DH doesn't like it that I unhooked the xbox and took all the gaming posters down.