Now that it is 2020 how many of you have seen your stepkids to give them their Christmas gifts? If you haven't yet when do you plan to give them the gifts? At this point we don't know when we will get SD. One time it took until Easter to give her Christmas gifts. She got a cell phone from her mom and she sent the new number but I think everyone from my husband's family got blocked or something because no one has gotten a response after that one day. It was all fine until my husband sent a picture of our baby daughter. 

Holy First of the Golden Uterus

Does anyone else know of adults who grew up to be just as bad or worse than the GUBM that birthed them? Like the golden uterus has bestowed magical properties on them so they must be honored and given extra resources because they were the FIRST.

My DH has a toxic half sister from his father's first marriage. They are not close but she acknowledges him as a brother and they talk once in a while. My H also has twin sisters with the same mom.

I feel like I have these dark thoughts and here is the only place I can share them. I even have to put on a fake face even with my BFFs or they would judge me as an evil stepmom. I would never speak or act on these things but I think deep down maybe I am evil because I feel this way. I am never anything but nice to SD12, though I am disengaged from parenting her. I feel like all these things are natural to think but I have to pretend like I don't feel this way and that everything is equal with this child that I hardly know, doesn't like me, and isn't related to me.

For an update my baby came early so my husband WAS there for the birth! He has not taken any time off work yet and at this point I don't know if he will. I asked him if he was avoiding being home and he says he's just very busy and stressed.  

I had an easy pregnancy, a pretty smooth birth, easy breastfeeding, quick recovery and now we have a thriving healthy baby. I'm very fortunate.