I had to drop into the mommy octive today in a work meeting. You know the "cut the shiznit", "I've had enough", "this is your only warning" demon mom octive. It was momentary, and we got back to business but sheesh people. 

then I had to follow it up with an email to a team leader about upholding individual rights and professional conduct when speaking to other team members in front of a client's family. 

after 8 months of trying to advocate for people, with only a phone since I'm not allowed out of my office I am soooooo just ugh. that 2020 burn is real. 

So it's been a few months since MIL's passing. I can't remember if I posted and took it down, but I'm February we learned that MIL's partner of 15 years had secretly remarried a 25 year old woman with a 1 year old. 

I mean, people grieve differently and that is what it is, but here's what really frosts my cupcake. 
 

Oh man it’s been a busy couple weeks-and I even have some BM-related things to share! 

First we will start with the good news-I proposed to SO-he said “what the hell” *mail1* then he said yes! Needless to say e was surprised. SD9 apparently is the only one that saw it. SS14 and DD5 were busy playing in the water/looking for bugs and splashing in a mud puddle-I mean I’m the closest to the two of them-they’re my “live ins” but yeah. Whatever guys. At least SD9 was paying attention. 

So many of your know last year FIL79 moved in with us for a time due to illness. Since then he’s gotten better-enough to be back home on his own. He’s also had another non-hodgkin’s diagnosis since then (his 5th) and just finished up chemo. 

My MIL67 in this past week, has been diagnosed with a neuroendocrine cancer and it’s not looking good at all. 

I CANNOT for the life of me stand the thought of having both seats at our eventual wedding where his parents are supposed to be empty. It absolutely f-ing wreaks me.