So the fiance and I are on our downtime from SD3. I have gotta say, it's been a relaxing break in between holidays. While waiting for her return, I thought I would reach out on a subject I have had many comments on. Our schedule.
Well, another 2 weeks with the SD has come to an end. It went well for the most part. I felt like our relationship was truly growing, but I still have some issues...
*This is me venting - I know it's ridiculous, but maybe someone can help.
Everything has been going well, I became the SD's new favorite and then BAM! Sickness to screw it all up lol. She was sent home from school so my fiance stayed home all last week with her. Our bonding time right - out the window. Not that it's her fault, it's mine. I have an issue, and boy, I hope yall can help me with it... I hate germs! The kid has it coming out of both ends and is sneezing and coughing on everything in sight. I watched her puke on her hands and then wipe it in her hair.
My previous blog entry was driven by my anxiety of picking up SD from BM, being on a last minute hunting trip with the fiance's family and what to do/not do over the course of our time together.
First I have to say thank you to all replies to my blogs. I truly love seeing various point of views. As for the hunting trip... it was fantastic! I was able to be myself and the entire trip was filled with laughter and stories of their past as a family, as well as their asking about mine.
This is only my second entry, but it feels so good to just vent. Today's entry is written out of anxiety. My fiance and I usually make trips to Michigan for hunting with his dad. The usual trip consists of staying at his dad's, hunting his property and most importantly, relaxation. This coming trip will be different, very different. I was told the day before leaving that we will be hunting new propoerty and camping with his ENTIRE family. This means aunts, uncles, cousins and even the SD3. I truly enjoy hunting.. That's not a problem, but waiting until now to tell me?
Well, the movie is just that. It's a movie. Yes, they show the rebellious daughter that doesn't accept the new woman in her father's life, but they fail to capture so much. I am engaged to the love of my life. He has a 3 year old from a previous relationship and I still can't seem to find my footing. Perhaps it's my hectic work life and planning a wedding but my anger and resentment continues to grow towards this beautiful little girl! Is it jealousy? Spite, perhaps? I just can't understand. We have an absolutely perfect relationship, and then come the 2 weeks that SD3 spends with us.