Sigh..just when I though things were going better.
H...has ADHD..I try my very best to give him passes on things due to the ADHD.
People of Steptalk I have tried and tried and tried over the last 3 years to change myself, to do better, to manage the triggers after H's cheating. It ain't easy let me tell you...part of me always thinks the cheating was my fault. H thought I didn't pay enough attention to him.
My AH (ahole husband)..still cannot grasp the concept of not lying. Seriously, why is this so freaking hard...
After two years of putting this sh*tshow of a marriage back together...going to weekly counseling to help fix my self esteem, work on my people pleasing and start setting some freaking boundries...going to couples counseling to work on our communciation and issues..this dumb@ss still thinks its ok to lie about shit..."to protect my feelings"
PROTECT MY FEELINGS MY @SS. ITS TO PROTECT YOURSELF YOU JERK.
Oy...really my mother is OBSESSED with my sister. My sister is a legit genius...and is a veternarian. I on the other hand..am not a genius nor am I a vet. I'm just a lowly college graduate with two degrees. My parents..more specifically my mother...thinks the sun rises and sets on my sister. Now..this annoys the EFF out of my sister to the point she avoide my parents like the plague.
Hey y'all been a hot second. I've been busy working on myself with the help of my therapist...which is now a weekly thing. Topics we cover are..
1. How to deal with my triggers from DH's online extracurriculars....steller things like DH saying
"I hate liars". "I hate lying." Which in my head I'm screaming...."YOU ARE A LIAR DH...YOU LIED FOR YEARS..YOU ARE A LIAR"
Fun times dealing with that one..
As we know SD was in jeopardy of not graduation. DH let her know in under no circumastances that is not ok. SD has gotten her form filled out, etc. However, needless to say the conversation between SD and DH was a bit tense...and DH was very stern. (as he should be)
SD had a well-child appointment..the last one that DH will ever have to do as SD will be 18 in 218 days..and thus ending DH's responsibility for SD's healthcare.
In this appointment SD had the following complaints/issues..
1. Her stomach hurts all the time.
2. She has issues with pooping.
We now have a very pouty SD cause DH made her deal with this crap.
After I got home the other day. DH knew I was PISSED off about this whole thing. I told him I am not waiting another year to get on with our lives because SD can't get her shiznit together. I will sell this house out from under them..they can figure out another year of housing and I will move where the eff I want to. I was done..I've done my time and its not fair to keep jacking my life around for his failed reproductive experiment.
After coming off a week of oncall hell....Saturday I was on a call for 18 hours...(thank you Microsoft Azure).
I get the following from DH regarding SD..
SD was called out of class. She doesn't have enough seals (ie passing enough state tests) to graduate. She needs to earn more seals.
Is this a surprise to me...NO. I saw the state tests and the fact she only passed one and knew her graduating might not be happening. DH assured me when I asked she was on track.
I CANNOT DO ANOTHER YEAR WITH BEAVER ...I JUST CAN'T.
Sd and her friends are in a tiff. One "friend" is in her study hall class. Yesterday DH gets an alert that SD isn't in study hall. Mmm...hmm......next thing he gets a text from SD telling him..that she has detention. DH asks "Why do you have detention?" Its because she skipped study hall.
We have 241 days till DH's great emancipation. Woohoo......now in the last few weeks Beaver has..
Abandoned SD at a football....it was too late and Beaver didn't want to drive. SD had to go her friends for the night. She was embarassed to call DH for a ride and to come home.
Dipped out of all transportation of SD to work....
Dipped out of taking SD to her in car driving lessons...(I get to do that since my work is flexible)
Kept SD's social security card from us and from Sd...Because "SHEEE HADDDDD IT FIRSSSTTTTTT".
First ..we went on vacation. DH almost died from dehydration so that was fun. I was in a foreign country (thank heavens it was a country colonized by the British..they speak English) and thinking.."How do you get a body home from a foreign country." DH survived though..no lasting issues.