Stil hanging in there.. DH is still going to therapy on his own, we are still going to couples therapy together and overall I would say we are moving in the right direction. DH has had to come to terms with how his actions have now changed  a great many things.  Examples, most of my memories from vacations past are now tainted. As in...did he really have a good time with us..or was it just because he had time to  partake in his side life.

In as the Beaver sleeps....SD has a job at the local food restaurant.  They sell baked goods, salads and sandwhiches and it start with P.  She works from 5 p.m. till close, since she is still in school.  Closing is 9 p.m. but as we all know...you have to clean BEFORE you leave so while closing is 9 p.m. you may not get out till 9:45 or so.  Its the nature of any retail position that has closing.

as in the BITCH NEVER EVER LEAVES MY F*CKING MARRIAGE/LIFE.  I hadn't realized just how much I resent having that big fat orange tooth rodent in our lives...but oh boy did this weekend flesh that out.

This is NOT our weekend with SD..I repeat NOT OUR WEEKEND.  SD had to work Saturday evening..  Cool..whateves not our problem to get her to work.  

Its been a tough week here.  

Lots of emotions..

Sadness, anger, relief, dispare, grief....well just about all of them.  I will say there is a lot of relief because I have suspected something for a very long time but could never prove it.  I feel better there...I wasn't crazy.

I have went through everything that AH had...all accounts, etc

Its been eye opening...at this point trying to decide what the next course of actions are.  Stay or go...etc.