It's just a zoo in here some days. Skids walk around here like they have lead in their feet, each step pounds the floor, shakes the house. Doors slammed, waking up the toddler, waking up the baby. Yelling at fornite. Yelling at toddler. Eating chips like it's an effing contest to see who can chew the loudest, with their mouth open, while sticking their unwashed hands in and out of the bag crunching it.
It's enough to drive one mad.
... my family is a step, so is husbands. So is our own blend. I was much older when my parents split, less affected I feel. It breaks my heart that ALL 4 of my parents are more of parents to my husband than his mother and stepfather. As I type this with my husbands head in my lap while he sleeps. I could pay $200/hr for a therapy session but I'll put it out here instead. I cant understand what my DH did to deserve getting cheated on by his ex with his stepbrother and the two f0cks having a kid together and LYING to DH and everyone else about it for over a decade, including SS.
My DH's family consists of his mother, 2 bio siblings, 3 step sibs, and a step dad. So my MIL, who I actually enjoy spending time with, has bailed on every important thing in our lives-BUT the wedding. It has all been brought to my attention because of my DH's step sis. The 1 girl in all boys (I have sisters so I do not understand the pedestal). We were pregnant at the same time having the only granddaughters weeks apart, and I just had a son and a few months later she had a son.
Noooone. DH just asked oldest SS (his oldest BS) to go to bed. I dont believe the couch is a bed, the living room is not a bedroom, and listening to him sawing logs isnt how I like to enjoy watching a Sunday night movie. So he gets up, walks into the kitchen, then sits right back on the couch and starts dozing off again. Flabbergasted.
Upon the arrival of the newest baby, I've noticed my oldest SS1 has become a PITA. If he's not beating up SS2 and setting a horrible example for my 2yr old daughter who is struggling with aggression issues from watching them fight, he likes to pick up the newest baby and it makes baby start crying. I spend enough time juggling a toddler and a 2 yr old, I get so irritated when SS1 picks up his baby brother which makes him start crying. Like f♡《# man!!! I JUST GOT HIM DOWN....
It has been a long time since I've held my own pity party and cried but I managed to get some tears out yesterday. I could make something up about why, but I know deep down I was just making sure I was still human, I've been on autopilot for so long. We have a 1 1/2 year old together and I was terminated 4 days after I returned from mat-leave, already pregnant with the second one. Ive had severe S-I joint pain since October with this second pregnancy as well. It hurts to walk, pick up my child, bend over.