Planning summer vacation. Another year the step kids ARE NOT GOING. Why? 1. They are not well behaved in a. the car b. eating out c. at friends/family's homes, etc. 2. They are ungrateful. 3. Stepson12 destroys our car every time he gets in it. (ie: twists knobs till they break, writes on it with sharpie!!!!! (no longer gets pens, markers or any writing tools) puts shoes on everything, pulls vent covers off, derailed sunroof cover, licks finger & draws on windows!!!!! open drinks & dumps them in cup holds (no longer gets to have drinks) etc) btw we have a $45k car!!! 4.

I'm so sick of bio mom. Recently stepson12 told us her gets drilled with 100 questions when they come home that he cannot stand stand it. He was so upset that night, he wouldn't eat. So DH asked him if he wanted him to talk to his mom & see if he could get her to back off. He made comments as to like that will work, but whatever I don't care, I just can't take it. So we dropped kids off.

1/16 ischemic stroke due to stress.
Court next week. Cannot be changed. Been changed 2x. Motion is over a year old. Woke up today with a lot of set backs. Lots of stress. Back in a diaper. Can hardly walk today. Monday i'll go to doctor. Nothing can be done. I have to push thru. 3 days of court scheduled. I can't stop crying. Some how I feel if I could choke my mil I would feel better.

I have BIG COURT case come up next week. I don't tell my kids about court. It's stressful enough for adults, why burden the kids? It's not appropriate. Even if they see me ironing, I say I have a meeting. Well step kids came. Bio mom says she's going to MY COURT CASE!!!! I had no words. Emailed attorney. It's an open court room. She can be there. You have got to be kidding me? I'm so entirely sick of this shit.