Going to cut it short because I'm shaking and can't stop crying. SO went to a school event last week and promised me that, as BM is always vile to and about me (and him), that he'd sit nowhere near her. My friend has just sent me a video that BM put on Facebook and I saw my SO's arm next to BM and heard them chatting. He totally lied and promised he was nowhere near her, and is now saying I'm being unreasonable. I wouldn't mind if he'd been honest, but I feel the opposite of supported and totally alone.
I always used to think that eventually those who have messed around with people's lives, hurt them etc would get their comeuppance... but now I'm starting to realise that this isn't going to happen. My SO had it bad when he and BM divorced. She was left with EVERYTHING and he escaped with a car and a television. No home, no money, nothing because it was the only way he would get a quick divorce.
A work colleague/friend called me earlier to catch up, I've had quite a bit of time off work lately as they owed me hours and I had holiday to take. Anyway, my friend told me that our colleague/friend had handed his notice in at work but hadn't told many people yet. I've known this man for years, and I have to admit I was upset to hear that he is going, but also proud because I know he has wanted to go down a different career path for a long time. Once I got off the phone to my friend I sent him a text, just the usual...
All my posts seem to be about BM and my expectations of SO. I am absolutely rubbish at dealing with the fact that my boyfriend, the person I love will always be in contact with his ex. It breaks my heart that he was married and had kids with someone else. There I said it..
I know it sounds bad but as a child-less SM I think I've always expected slightly more than I would from a child-less partner. My SO doesn't treat me badly by any means, he actually treats me the best anyone has, otherwise I wouldn't have taken his kids on... but I always feel like I expect more. I feel like maybe, selfishly I always expect him to want to make it up to me for the fact I have to deal with his ex and someone else's kids, more so the ex thing... SO is also older than me though, so maybe I just expected more from the slightly older man, I'm not sure.
So there is literally no way of me knowing this, and I'm probably being ridiculously paranoid...but I feel like I already deal with and have dealt with a lot when it comes to SO. Obviously, being in this situation I've had to deal with an insane BM who would devote her last days to making our lives (especially mine) hell... I also have to deal with the fact that BM lives near us and we share many of the same acquaintances/friends. Also, SO's girlfriend from after BM, although she has never caused me a problem whatsoever, also shares acquaintances so I have to see pics of her on FB.
Yesterday I went to have lunch with a good friend who is an acquaintance of BM (their SOs are good friends - we live in a small place!) My friend told me about BM's upcoming birthday plans and said that she had agreed to a night-shift at work that evening, to avoid awkwardness etc. Anyway, my friend told me that BM has been trying to convert my friend onto her side, telling her 'all the things Saffron1 has done' and inviting her to couples' meals and girlie days.
She's alive, I'm not that mean... everyone's fine... but the car she is supposedly selling this week is a mess HAHAHHAAH