The relationship between BM and I is strained, to say the least. I know this may sound awful given the stereo-type step-moms are already given but I'm fed up with being walked all over-- I just hope I'm not judged for typing this out, I really just need to vent. I have not shared this with anybody outside of our family, other than my bff, as far as everybody knows, we are a happy family b/c if people know, people will ask how things are going and sometimes, I just don't want to have to think about it.

H and I did not get together under the best of circumstances. We had known each other in high school and were in touch off and on after. We were both seperating and divorcing when we got together this last time and for the first time, as more than friends. I do not love often or easily but when I do it is completely. We spent a weekend together and fell head over heels in love. I was much further along in the divorce process than he since my ex and I had emotionally/physically seperated years before we seperated our homes.

so dh came home last night from work and we talked briefly. he admitted that he is under a lot of stress, is very tired, and is short tempered. he is working two jobs right now, while also studying for a series of work exams. i understand this, but its still taking me some time to forgive his words and actions. i'm just hurt, more than anything. he said that he loves me and that we need to find a therapist. i agreed to this, as i love him too, and things are out of control. we sat outside together and watched the meteor shower, in peace and quiet-no talking at all.

Back when we had EOW visitation, and DH would try to communicate with BM about the skids' schooling, medical and psychological issues, she wouldn't communicate with him. She wouldn't give him any information. He ended up having to call the school, doctor, psychologist, etc.

I am hoping she is okay, but it doesn't seem like she has been online since July???

I posted my blog earlier about BM not willing to take any time off to take care of her sick son, my SS2. My fiance texted her and asked what the status was (wondering who was doing what) and her text back said, "I took care of it, that's all you need to know." DF texted back and said, "Well I do need to know where he is because that is in our court stipulation." Finally she told him that her friend was picking SS2 up and keeping him for the day. Then DF decided to call her instead of text. I was there and heard how he started the conversation:

So bm calls dh last weekend to asked, "i know you are paying cs but can you buy ss6 a pair of shoes for school" now normally that would not be a prob except for the fact that ss6 is not really dh's son. he "assumed" the role of daddy for the short time they were together because dh and bm had a son together and ss6 did not have a father figure. they split up when ss6 was about 1 year old. he comes to our house eow with ss9 but for the past few months, he does not want to come over anymore.

So, a lady in our neighborhood sent an email around trying to find homes for 4 precious kittens that were going to be taken to the pound today if they didn't. SD BEGGED my DH and me to get one. We said no. She also told her BM...who is taking ALL of them. One side it pisses me off because she can't pay her bills to begin with and is constantly talking about how she's a single mother and can't afford this or that (usually something for the SD--clothes, PADS/TAMPONS, school supplies, etc).

Okay, lets see,,,,,,
D and I started going out in October of 2009, Right after I returned from a girls trip to Fla.
He told me he was divorced. He told me his wife had left him in June of 09 but the marriage was broken and she was invloved with another guy (R) before she was forced to leave by court order in June. He told me he had joint custody with his ex and he got the kids (5 girls) every other week.

Somebody mentioned the other day that parents are generally less happy than people without children. Here's an indepth article from New York Magazine exploring that theory.

http://nymag.com/news/features/67024/