My life feels completely pointless on the for me part. I'm 34 years old, married for the past 3 years to who I thought was the man of my dreams. Raising 2 kids that don't belong to me and both have different mothers. One ( 11yr old girl) we have full time other than every other weekend. And the other (8yr old boy) we share a 40/60 split and pay out close to $1000 a month on. My husband doesn't want anymore kids (not the story before we married and he knew how important it was to me to be a mother some day). Sooo here's my thing.