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Pregnant and alone

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Hello!!!  Well I am 4 months pregnant and everyday I feel depressed and alone.  I don't know what I was thinking getting pregnant but I see it as a blessing.  All of my step kids have moved out but they still causing problems with my husband and I.  Since I am pregnant I am very strict about COVID 19 and I don't want to be near people especially if they don't live with me.  But my husband doesn't understand that and we always argue about it.  He wants to have his kids over to the house or he wants to hang out with them at their house but they don't take COVID seriously.

Heartbroken

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Well since we still have to follow social distancing my step son will have a high school graduation but only 2 family members are able to attend. And guess who he will be taking???  Yup not me!!!!  I found out yesterday that he is taking his dad and his sister.  So were does that leave me???  I thought I was like a mom to them.  I have been in his life for 11 years and every time he would get in trouble, I would be the one to be there since his dad was always drunk.  When I found out I felt betrayed, humiliated, used, and of course hurt.

Alone

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So apparently to my husband I am cold hearted but yet I stepped up to help him raise his kids.  Now that his kids are adults I have encountered problems with him.  I don't talk to his kids for the same reason because I don't want no problems but talking or no talking to them, he still continues to say that I am the problem and that I am mean to his adult kids.  I recently had a miscarriage and I felt/feel alone.  When I told him the way I feel, he right away started attacking me about me being mean to his kids and not loving his kids.

Unappreciated

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Hello!!!  So I am new and I have many things to say.  Well first of all I am a SM to 3 children which now they are adults. Every since the oldest left,she has caused many problems with her dad and me.  I have been in her life for 11 years and she had the guts to tell me that I am nobody to her and she never wants to talk to me.  I was the only person who cared for her and helped her get her life started.  Her dad was always drunk and her biological mother abandoned them when they were little.  I feel unappreciated and hurt.