So, SD15 told DH that she felt like I was "against" her mother. She didn’t want him telling me. I guess she just wanted to let it out to her dad, plus I think she wanted attention from him. I'm not sure exactly how DH responded to this, but I'm sure he handled it properly. And, of course, DH was going to tell me. We don't keep things like that from each other.

Outwardly, my relationship with SS and SD is really good. I'm sure in my DH's mind, he couldn't have picked a better stepmother/mother for his kids. I'm sure I play the part well outwardly, but usually I am angry or upset on the inside. I feel a lot of resentment towards my DH and his ex for decisions that they have made which have negatively affected me and because all of their interactions and decisions are because of the kids, I resent the kids. So, outwardly, I may be nice to everyone, but I am often seething within.

Over $1200 a month for ADHD medication for SS. That's how much it would cost us if we didn't have health insurance. DH never knew the true cost of the medications when he was paying a co-pay, but now that he has a plan with a high-deductible, he's paying it out-of-pocket and finally realizing how much it really is. And that's just for SS's ADHD meds, that doesn't include SD's anti-anxiety meds, both of their psychiatry and therapy appointments, dermatology appointments, and other medical appointments because they generally don't take care of themselves.

I'm pregnant and with all the hormones flowing through me, I keep having fantasies about leaving DH and the kids (SD and SS). I'm also a planner, so I'm trying to figure out what I need to do to prepare to leave the situation that I'm in. I'll need to sell the house and buy another one that's closer to work (My current commute is beyond crappy; I bought the house for the convenience of DH and the kids, but not my own).