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Im not sure why dh wants to tell me some stories, especially when it deals with ss14, he knows how i feel.

Dh went to get his haircut on friday, by his half sister.

She is ok- weird and sometimes i feel makes a mountain out of mole hill, but ehh.

He decides to tell her about ss14 being late this morning, and i had to drive him to school.

She asks about why im not up, (like why was i not up at 630-7am to get him out the door with an awesome breakfast and my love) 

Dh laughs- and its just so hilarious (me up? Im to lazy to get up)

Word of the day: semantics

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Ss14 therapist was by today, and after they had their session, i told her about sunday.

We were going to a place to eat, and meet up with my friend. It was her kids birthdays, and our anniversary. We were all getting ready to leave, and i  told ss14 if he is coming with us to please watch the meaness, and saying rude things to my son.   Ss14 and my son is 9, and all day saturday the boys were rough housing and saying stuff like ill kill you, and ss gets stuck on calling my son "short", like its his name, he also fake punches my son in the face.

Disappointed in myself.

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The visit was great, ss14 did not even come down till they were close to leaving.

Then i had to take bioson9 to drop off spot.

I get back things are ok.

At dinner ss14, comes down sees we are having leftovers- we had pizza while my cousin was here- there was one piece left over.

Dh has a left over steak, i have a leftover porkchop- there are 2 more if ss wanted them.

Well after realizing that his mood changed- he now has a headache- and soooo tired!

He gets a drink- then plops and puts his head on table.

So irritated

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Ss14 was not supposed to be home!! Ahhh

Ss14 went to MIL. He was supposed to be there till monday!

My cousin- close one- is visiting! She moved out of state a few years ago, but we see her son all the time- he flies in over summers to see my uncle. Atfirst we were going to meet her eat breakfast, but plans changed, so she said she would come to house. I was glad about that because babygirl does okeyy in restaurants, but she has her limits. Plus for me the visit would be more relaxed, not rushed eating and talking.

Plus, i thought ss would not be here.

I wish i could post real step situations, on my socialmedia!

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This site is as real as i can be!!

Ive been toying with starting a support group for stepparents, in my area, because there is nothing!

Just not sure im ready to jump into that yet.

There is fakebook- but i cant read one more "BM is hard to deal with, but i love my bonus kids!" "Oh im sorry you're having trouble, but my steps are awesome, so here is one lame-o tip" eyeroll.

Im sorry i want to vent! Vent! Vent!

And hear someone elses story.

Ughhh getting sucked back in to ss school crap

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I have been disengaged from ss14 school crap since christmas. (Thats when everything hit fan and i was just done)

I also stopped talking to ss unless dh was home. Well besides yes/no answers. But i have avoided being "alone" with him as much as possible.

I also stopped giving my opinion on anything ss related to dh. I stopped the updates. I informed dh i will not answer anything that he has already given an answer to, i also will only tell ss "yes".

My stance has been strong- even with dh arguing with me about it, or trying to involve me.

Short lived...

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Me trusting dh, very short lived.

I had to travel down to pick up my son. I woke up feeling sick. This whole week i have been with babygirl 24/7, because she has been congested and feverish...she was finally better thursday, but we had talked about dh staying home with her since he cant work in rain.

Every friday i take bioD with me, and very rarely i travel alone to get bioson.

Welp, guess who got up not feeling well ME!

I feel im on way out.

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So many things are adding up and going on, im not sure how to leave but ive been thinking really hard about it!

We just got in an argument this morning, he came in to tell me he is going to help his friend move some stuff- after all his talk about "family weekend" doing something together- bullcrap.

I feel i cant go anywhere or plan anything on weekends or i have to hear about it! Its bullcrap im over it. I feel like packing up my kids and going somewhere. Not sure where...but somewhere!

I just have so much resentment that has built up.

I found alady starting an adhd group!!

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So excited! I went and it was so great talking to these other moms! I cant wait to go back in november.

Dh did not want to go, but i went anyway, i could have sat with those ladies longer than 2hrs!

It was nice to hear a long time married couple-that her husband was not on board with his sons diagnosis- like she is married its their kid together and he does not get it- it was just nice listening to these ladies and them totally getting it!

Just a positive update in a high blood pressure world!

I just need a support group...

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This is two school vents in one- sorry- but thanks if you read it.

Im feeling irritated with my ex- he is not giving me school information, he is not informing me on conferences.

I know what i have to do document, document, then court. God its so slow though.

I just hate this 2 house hold crap. School is lazy because they deal with usually one family member, not 2.

In this day and age with split families i feel the schools should be more proactive.

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