Hey Guys, I havent posted much,, Im like some other, I linger and drop in and read post. But I have been struggling in WHO AM I?

I think since entering my 30's a few years ago, I have looked at life differently and I feel that what I wanted before is not what I want in my life now. Do you ever feel that way.

This year has been hard, my oldest is graduating a year early, my little entered her teen years and lately I find myself just alone because the kids are growing and not home much due to work or with the other parent.

well it is but not as much as it is my DH.... Most of you may remember that a few months ago, my SD sent me some pretty ugly text messages. They were actually fighting words for me but I have yet to speak my mind to her. She has yet to even say sorry.

Well summer is here and because she is so lazy to get out and work, apparently my DH is supplying her odd and end jobs. GREAT! we can hardly pay our bills and he is paying her too,, which I guess he would be anyway IF SHE wasnt working. BUT she is almost 21 and there is no reason to NOT be working.

Saturday started off as a good day. I took my BD12 to her practice and had intentions of coming home and my DH and I going to look at a car for BD15.

BUT while at practice, BD15 sent me a text that said DH doesnt realize that BD15 is there and he was on the phone with SD20. He was telling her that she is like him, carefree, doesnt care and is living life. Then he said "you can stay here during the summer when you are out of college"

For those of you may remember around the holidays I was stuck with sd20 dog unannounced to me for like 16 days. I was so angry. My husband did not discuss this with me just took the damn dog in.

WELL low and behold, I come home yesterday to find the dog BACK and sd20 is on Spring Break in North Carolina. Gee, thanks DH for your consideration of my feelings after complaining three weeks around Christmas that I did not want another dog in my house.