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SD8.5..the know it all

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Submitted by StepOnMe101 on Wed, 01/11/2012 - 9:38am

Recently SD8.5 has been correcting me on things. Saying things like "That's not how you do that" or "No that's not true" Really SD because last I checked I AM THE ADULT you are the CHILD. It annoys the crap out of me. If she is like this now I can only imagine. It's almost like I have TWO DH's to deal with when SD is around. She takes after her Father and Grandma..almost OCD about the way things should be done. Everything from folding socks to doing the dishes. SD thinks she is an adult too. Last night we had breakfast for dinner..I made bacon for her and DH.

It's been a glorious 11 days without SD...

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Submitted by StepOnMe101 on Thu, 01/05/2012 - 3:48pm

She comes home from BM Sunday night and then we are back to our regular routine. I feel guilty saying it but I haven't even really noticed her being gone nor have I missed her one bit. Life is so easy with just my husband and I. When SD is in our home things are hectic and unpredictable. I can't wait for SD to grow up already!! But knowing her needy self, she will probably be calling for DADDDDDDDDDDDYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYYY to help her with every damn thing well into her teens. The kid is almost 9 and she stills asks for help on things she knows years ago now how to do herself.

Feel like I'm back at square one

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Submitted by StepOnMe101 on Thu, 12/08/2011 - 9:08am

Every time I think I am finally falling into the groove I bounce right back and find myself wishing SD away. Why can't I just come to grips with the fact that this child will be around FOREVER and I just need to get used to that fact and DEAL with it?? I hate feeling the way I do sometimes. I feel evil and guilty for having the thoughts that run through my head. DH calls SD "baby" this morning...same thing he calls me...and I feel something inside of me just start to boil. Little things like that.

Learning to just let go

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Submitted by StepOnMe101 on Wed, 11/16/2011 - 1:16pm

I constantly find myself counting days on the calendar or looking ahead to holidays and figuring how many of SD's winter break days she will be with us and so on. I am in a consistently anxious state about it. How can I learn to just LET GO and take it as it comes? I can't stand that I obsess about this. DH and BM recently signed off on a new agreement so I know pretty much now what it will be like on a week to week basis, but there are of course the upcoming holidays that I was configuring on the calendar this morning. I wish I just didn't care one way or the other.

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