Well, this is my first time here and I'm not sure where to begin. I hate my ss with a passion. I also love his father still. I never thought I would say that about a child and I'm actually ashamed that I have these feelings. My ss lives with us the majority of the time because his mother is a self centred woman's who has no desire to parent. Now, I knew this going into this relationship but over the years her involvement has become less as she keeps moving farther away from where we live. My ss is a very young 12 who has no interest in anything except playing video games.