Well my friend went back online and he’s deleted his account ( this is osds husband whose been caught on online dating by one of my single friends), I still have the screen grab she sent with his photos on though lol. I’ve decided not to out him for now, mainly because it’s going to make things worse for me in terms of splitting from dh. I’d love nothing more to ruin things for osd but I’m going to bide my time. Who knows it may come out without me having to say a word? Things are not sounding great from limited conversations I’ve overheard.

I’ve never ever felt so stressed out as I do now. I’m now 12 days post op hysterectomy and it’s been rough I now have a wound infection well 2 to top it off one in belly button from failed laparoscopic and the edge of my big wound. To say I feel exhausted is an understatement.

After my last entry we reconciled and have tried to patch things up which meant me disengaging from the sds. We have been to counselling and he talks a good talk but it’s obvious I’m way down the list. After Xmas I got a call from the hospital major surgery I had been waiting for was to be scheduled. I am now a week post op and home. He told me he was very disappointed his girls had not even been bothered how concerned he was or about how I was ( me - well I was are u so surprised I don’t exist to them unless I’m buying stuff).