Last night was a rough night at home. I got emotional and DH got in my path and I went off (meaning I told him how I felt about everything, although I would have rather punched him, lol). I also went off on Monday night and he tried to hug me and give me a kiss but I shrugged him off. He's been apologizing since Monday about how he and his son have treated me. I am more angry than hurt now and I think thats what I need.

So I think just about everyone knows about my SS's behavior. DH finally broke down and told BM that SS was bad (the porn ordeal). But DH refuses to tell her anything else. Hopefully I will be in my new apartment soon and I want to call BM and talk to her about SS's behaviors and explain that he really needs help. I know she knows SS needs help but since DH has hid all of SS's issues over the years, she has NO CLUE what has been going on with him. It is not a bash SS session, I really do want this child to get some help, he really needs it.

So DH gets a call from BM today asking why there is bruising all around SS8.5's kidneys. She said she didn't notice it, but SS brought it to her attention and told her it was my BS13 who did it...

We moved far away from family and friends.. so we set up a Skype account so that we could stay in touch.

Problem w/Skype, is it tells people the INSTANT you sign online.. so.. what is the big deal w/that???

My skids or the ex or both keep calling anytime I hop on to check MY email. I mean.. its the middle of the FN day, their father is AT WORK, they know it.. yet feel that I should answer all these calls.

I am grateful to this blog because I do not have a lot of people who can understand where I am coming from. Most of my friends or family members do not have step children and my friends do not have teenagers!

Mediation went overwhelmingly in our favor.

The movie Stepmom was on TV the other night and of course I couldn't help but turn it on. It came out in 1998 and has Julia Roberts and Susan Sarandon as the main actresses. I saw the film when it first came out, but it definitely struck a chord with me even more now that I'm a stepmom.

Sometimes I feel like I am so messed up. This morning while nursing BF sprained ankle I was smoothing out the wrap so that it wouldn't curl and catch on his sock (very gently mind you) and he proceeds to ask me why I have to always squeeze his ankle. OMG...that just went all over me. I proceeded to tell him that I am not trying to hurt him and that it really bothers me that he thinks so. I was really upset...could be leftover from the other night or something.

Today was a horrible day...AHOLE DH came home after drinking an at 11PM OUR son says "I'm starving"...Mind you, he does this ALL THE TIME...DH KNOWS how much he eats...but today, you see, DH had a stick up his butt...so he gets angry and starts making our son some hot dogs at 11PM! Mind you, I left at 8PM and went to McDonalds with him and got him an ADULT meal, not a kid's meal...and he ate ALL OF IT...Mind you I cooked Hot Dogs and fries for him at around 4PM when I realized ahole DH was coming home late as he was "networking, ie.

Today I found that DH might actually have a facebook account...It ticks me off to no end because he knows EVERYTHING I have and goes into it, etc...I don't mind...I have NOTHING to hide...on the other hand he's been acting like an ahole lately, especially today...and I keep thinking the whole "you are a loser F U" text from truant did not just come out of nowhere...well, I believe he actually DOES have a facebook acct...