Today was a horrible day...AHOLE DH came home after drinking an at 11PM OUR son says "I'm starving"...Mind you, he does this ALL THE TIME...DH KNOWS how much he eats...but today, you see, DH had a stick up his butt...so he gets angry and starts making our son some hot dogs at 11PM! Mind you, I left at 8PM and went to McDonalds with him and got him an ADULT meal, not a kid's meal...and he ate ALL OF IT...Mind you I cooked Hot Dogs and fries for him at around 4PM when I realized ahole DH was coming home late as he was "networking, ie. drinking with his friends"...I KNOW he saw one that I hate! One ahole who is always interfering in the whole skid mess...even though DH denied it, I saw it on his texts on his phone...Anyway, so he gets ticked off at me "accussing me of NOT FEEDING MY CHILD!" that HE is his FIRST priority...WTH? F U DH! I should've known...I have put you first for 11 freaking years...when you wanted to go on vacation without our 1yr old...when you wanted to go dancing and my baby was only months old...all this crap because he kept saying that once truant was born his ex did nothing with him and that he felt that the marriage should come first...and if OUR SON comes first WTH were you out with your buddies drinking until 8PM tonight? KNOWING FULL WELL we have NO CAR and are stuck in our apartment ALL DAY EVERY FREAKING DAY! I LOST IT! My autistic son is where he is because "I" alone have spent thousands of hours researching therapies, finding therapies, doctors, specialists, sports, teams, music lessons, etc...etc...etc...DH has not ONCE looked for information to help him...yes, he does attend all visits, etc...as much as he can, but NOT ONCE did he take the initiative to find resources for us...and you DARE question me feeding my son? Are you freaking kidding me? I think the ahole has been talking to truant, I think the ahole did see his stupid friend...both of which try to mess with our relationship and always have...

Anyway, at the end of the night I went to my son's room to sleep with him...I cannot stand to be anywhere near that ahole right now...and my son comes out of the room telling me that "daddy was mean to him..." when I ask him what happened he said "he hit my head, my arm..." Honestly, my autistic son NEVER lies, but as he has overcome his disability he has become more "like normal kids...ie. lies..." So what did I do? I went to the ahole's room and asked him why he hit him...his response "I didn't"...I told him "YOU MUST HAVE AHOLE, because my son NEVER LIES! KIDS NEVER LIE!" and I shut the door...you see, his truant kid lied ALL THE TIME about me...but did he bother to see if it was true? No, he always said "my kid never lies, kids never lie..." So I couldn't help but just throw it back in his freaking face...

I am sorry, I know I am rambling, but I need to in order to keep my sanity because I want to literally go and whack him and get the heck out of this place and leave him and all his pathetic trashy family...

I feel like calling his friend and telling him OFF! The ONLY problem is that I have known his friend's aunts, uncles, etc...FOR YEARS! I met them ALL before I even knew that this ahole was his friend...I met them ALL when I was 14 and I am now 42...I didn't meet this ahole friend until about 9yrs ago...so I can't just tell him to F OFF because I would feel bad because I do love the rest of his family, I just can't stand this ahole...He has ALWAYS interfered in our relationship when we were here...always trying to tell me how truant should come first...he is another selfish ahole kid of divorced parents whose dad cheated on his mother, but when he got married, although his mother's husband babysits for him ALL THE TIME, etc...he invited HIS DAD and MOM ONLY and did NOT allow his mother's husband to attend because he just wanted "his mommy and daddy there and he deserves that..." AHOLE!

This guy brought us many problems the first time we were here...and it is starting up again...when my crazy mil starting harrassing me his advice to my DH? Just make sure your WIFE doesn't tell her off...make sure that she does NOT...she has no right, it's up to you to tell your mother to stop...WTF? His mother harrasses me and I'm supposed to keep my mouth shut? However, the couple of times my mom tried to harrass my DH I gave him FULL PERMISSION to tell her off!

I just know that if he keeps seeing this ahole and truant our relationship is over...I hate him so much right now...I never wanted it to end this way and a part of me wants to work it out, but I feel like it will NEVER be...we had done great until we moved here and truant got preggo and his mother started her crap and his stupid "friend" started his...I hate him for being an ahole to allow these people to interfere in our relationship...

Now, funny thing is the ahole friend has a crappy marriage...his wife is ALWAYS complaining about him and yet my DH told him to stop hanging out with another friend of theirs because HE WAS ALLOWING someone else to interfere in his marriage...but he has done the same!