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Submitted by Sita Tara on Fri, 04/02/2010 - 2:49pm

He's out. I'm down.

First night without BD 4 was last night. My sons helped me through. Tonight they have plans at their friends. I had a friend lined up to spend the night so I wasn't alone.

She canceled.

First night alone no kids no friends since all this happened.

I wish I'd never met him now, as I was so strong when we met. I wish I didn't miss him - the man I thought I married. How could I have been so wrong in choosing him? How could I have not seen he could do this? I have been through similar things before when I was very young...

A thanks and a request from me

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Submitted by Sita Tara on Thu, 03/18/2010 - 10:04pm

I am not sharing my life anymore on here, and I miss the catharsis my writing and many wise, caring, thoughtful and sometimes challenging (;) ) responses brought my way.

Thanks to everyone who sent well wishes and to Dawn for the pin so my friends could catch the post. I will continue to read them tomorrow- an entirely horribly difficult day for me.

An apology to my Husband and SD

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Submitted by Sita Tara on Sun, 02/28/2010 - 9:21am

I posted things this week I shouldn't have. I let my emotions get the best of me in all this whirlwind of the life I thought I had falling apart. I usually am level headed and rational, but not right now.

I shouldn't have posted, but I was desperate for support, since my main source, my once proclaimed "shoulder to lean on, rock on which I rest" has decided I am holding him back from his life's happiness.

When I never could have envisioned my life happiness without him prior to this.

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