Really since school has been out for the summer, things at the jojo and company residence have been different. Bf daughter has not been home much...if she is home she has a friend over...or she goes to her friend. Last week she actually spent a few days with her mother. Shocking. he acts so very discontent when she is home. Almost like she just can't stand to be home. THe last few times she has had a friend over....she has made a terrible mess of the house at night when she and her friend were supposed to be asleep.

Sometimes I feel like I am so messed up. This morning while nursing BF sprained ankle I was smoothing out the wrap so that it wouldn't curl and catch on his sock (very gently mind you) and he proceeds to ask me why I have to always squeeze his ankle. OMG...that just went all over me. I proceeded to tell him that I am not trying to hurt him and that it really bothers me that he thinks so. I was really upset...could be leftover from the other night or something.

BF daughter had a friend to sleep over last night...sweet little girl..very polite. Late last night when we were asleep, I guess they got up and decided to get things from the fridge...cabinet...wherever and mix things together in pots. It looked like my kitchen had exploded this morning and it actually looked like they had attempted to clean it up some so I can't imagine what it looked like before they did that. They had gotten in to my spices and probably emptied $25 worth of spices...coffee grounds were everywhere...cool aid mix...everything they could find I guess.

I have made an observation about BM's and SM's. It seems that it is a near obsession in some cases. As hard as it is to deal with when you have a difficult situation, it seems that this constant fighting, hatred, jealousy, and childishness totally runs their lives. Why let someone who is insignificant to you completely contol your life?...that is exactly what they want. I can't imagine being so miserable and stressed out. I worry about some of you and how stress can totally make you ill. Honestly if you could work some kind of truece with the BM/SM you should do it.