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HER FAMILY OMGOSH THESE PEOPLE NEED TO BACK OFF

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So yesterday my SO posted on his facebook (this kind of drama just pisses me the hell off) about how he is changing jobs and going back to his old job. He of course had a ton of comments saying how great it is bla bla bla THEN BM uncle gets on and makes a comment about how he wishes his niece would pull her head out of her ass and realize what a great guy my SO is.....

BM looking for attention from her ex husband

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This makes two nights in a row she is midnight texting my SO. I'm about to BLOW UP! Of course she is texting. She is leaving her BF and moving back. All she knows is my SO had taken care of her since she was prego with somebody else's kids (yes KIDS) for many years until she left him for another man to pick up and do the same. Now she has wore out her welcome with that guy and thinks she is going to come back here and enter my life? I am proud of the BF for standing up for himself regarding SD17. And getting out of this crazy mess. But not a fan of what is headed my way regarding her.

It's a tough day today. Being a mom and a SM. I am trying to be positive.....

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Today has been rough for me. Being a mom and sharing my kids has not got one single bit easier over the past 11 years. My daughter who is now on her own has been difficult for me to accept. My son who is now 13 is looking more to his dad for fun. I feel like I'm loosing them. Then I have the 4 skids. One hating my every breath and my every movement. I have been fighting tears today over my biological daughter and her efforts to keep her father close to her. I work so hard to make sure she has everything she needs. I call her every day.

well I made a choice

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I am feeling optimistic today. I know I know I'm sure my words will go unheard and uncared about BUT I made effort and knowing I'm trying is helping me to learn to cope with the fact that SD16 just hates me. I wrote her a letter today. A long letter. I did not apologize for our fight. Nor what I said BUT I did tell her that our actions are our choice. And I am done with the BS of what happened last weekend. I will never tell her she isn't allowed in our home.

they will be here in less then 9 hours

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I am having many mixed emotions about this. I talked to SS11 last night. He was so excited to come. And I know SS14 is looking forward to it as well. OF course its SD16 that I am dreading. My house isn't really that big. We will have 5 kids in it. Which is everything I have been asking SO for. Last night I packed up all my personal belongings and put them in my little storage shed for the next few days. Had to put every single thing in there that SO thought would piss off SD16. So that means all the cards he got me, anything that has to do with love, or beyond that if you know what I mean.

things that are pissing me off!

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I would like to tell him the following things!
My family is just as important as yours!
I know for a fact if your son was playing basketball and my family invited us over WE would be at YOUR childs game NOT with my mother father and siblings! Today is the last time I will ever do this for you again! My child is equally important!
I will NO longer step aside so your family can take over OUR weekends or holidays! YOUR kids haven't even met my parents and its been over a YEAR!

today.....

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I'm feeling defeated today. I think all this stress is finally taking its toll on me. I am having irreg heartbeats. I am waking up from having night sweats. I don't know how much longer I can continue to put my heart and my body through this game. I call it a game because that is what it is. I'm engaged.... I think NOT. And I wish he had never asked me to begin with. If I was going to have to hide it for a year then what is the point?????

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