Came home from my mini-vacation so I could spend time with Loghead, my DH. Worked hard to get rid of the skids for the weekend, but two of them changed plans behind my back because of their "work schedules." BS- they're both sitting around playing on their computers and video games.

This is just an EXAMPLE of where my frustrations lie with SD:

So she SD has been here for one full week of what will now be 1 month of her 2 month summer vaca. Since we picked her up last Friday, naturally BM should've picked SD up today for the weekend, but instead she said "not this weekend." Okay, whatever - that really has nothing to do with my post.

Well I thought BM had grown up a bit. But again I was wrong. Me and Dh were planning on doing some nice family pics of us and Sd with my baby bump. However when Dh picked up Sd4 today she has bright pink, purple, and blue hair. She has not done this in a year, so I think the timing is pretty suspicious. I just want to smack her. Why would you dye your daughter's beautiful blonde hair abunch of punk colours?

Ohhh I can't wait to have this kid so I can have something major to focus on.

It sounds so simple when you type it out. Doesn't feel that simple though. I know he will never change. He will never support or respect me and neither will his kids. I know I'm only teaching my daughter that its okay to let a man control, manipulate, and disrespect a woman. I know its not healthy for anyone involved. I don't know why I am so terrified to leave. Well, I'm sure I can think of a million reasons, but I know in the back of my mind they are just excuses. It's like jumping of a high dive... he pushes me to the edge, then begs me not to jump.

Ok... lol. Last night was ridiculous.... I can laugh about it now. But believe you me - I was pissed. I worked over-time last week, ever single day because I was hosting a week long event at my job. I then had a very busy weekend with the family. This week has been very hard because of my inability to catch up on sleep and just dealing with various stressful situations at home.

I think I might have to do this in stages.

Ok my youngest baby is about to turn three and the BM family lives 3 hours away. Which means that they always have two parties for both the girls, one here with all their friends and DH family, and one in her old home town. Well BM told DH that this year he was not invited to babys birthday this year, because she said that she didnt want him there. I told DH to screw the BM and that was his child just as much as his. Who comes off thinking that they can tell their chikds father that they can not come to their own childs b-day party!

Just got back from my mom's friend's apt...she brought all the kids here for the week (beach apt)...incl her daughter's skids who are 12 & 15...she is allowed and encouraged by their father to reprimand them, they are told to respect "grandparents and wife" as if it were him or they will respond to him when he sees them. It is amazing how my mom's friend tells even the 15yr old "time to get off the phone, pool or beach time is up, etc..." and they do as they aré told! No ifs, ands or buts!

I'm still laughing at this one. I had lunch with DH and we were talking about getting away for a few days over the summer. All our kids are grown and (mostly) out of the house so this will be just a little adventure and change of scenery. We have already planned a weekend at my brother's house. But DH says this isn't really a vacation. I agree with him.

Whenever I attempt to talk about our marriage is...DH just keeps singing the same story about his kids & BM. If we go out on date night he always breaks the rules & talks about skids, BM & his job(Big NO NO).I am letting go of trying to keep trying to keep trying. I am really beginning to like being at home alone now more than ever before. I told him straight up today that I dont care about their lil lives bottom line! I am not in the least bit interested in their new drama everyday. Can anyone relate?????