Everyday feels like an overwhelming challenge to remain sane and to keep a smile on my face.

I find myself growing more and more ill-tempered at those "so called" suicidal emo kids that rant and rave about their problems to the world. Or even better, the ones that like to complain about how much their lives suck but when you look at their lives, you're stuck standing there shaking your head.

So we're at the kids play area at the mall with SD tonight and she's climbing over the fake logs and such with a boy. He tells her this is my mom, she points at her father and says that is my daddy. She points at me and says "and she is my other one thingy."

Now I know who I am.
F.

Hey everyone! I haven't been on in a while, but it's actually a good thing! Let me tell ya!

Thanks to those of you who commented on my last blog, "O/T: Laid Off Today". I appreciated all of the positive vibes. And they must have paid off! I am happy to say that after 3 weeks of searching, I started my new Full Time job this past Monday!!!

I was just posting on another comment and DH was on the phone with a buddy, and I look over my shoulder and he is reading what I am typing.

What the heck???

What a jerk! First he contacts my therapist behind my back and tries to hide it. Then has to come clean, now he is trying to read my comments on this site?

How much lower can he go?

The dirty SOB!!! My dear dear DH, finally shows his true colors!!!

SO today - again a decent day. I went grocery shopping (mainly for things I needed - he went yesterday but didn't get things that I needed, but I didn't tell him what I wanted for reasons that I won't get into right now.)

But I get home and tell him what my doctor says, and we are actually having a conversation in front of both skids. Polite and nice - something that hasn't happened at ALL in the past 30 days or more.

After reading a post of one of the forums about a SM trying to conceive but having problems and resenting SD, a lightbulb went off in my head. I have BC and of course SO has his daughters but there was a time that I wanted a baby with him and of course I can't because he got a Vasectomy because the BM of his daughters refused to go on birth control. I realize I have alot of resentment towards his daughters because of this.

Kay Guys, here's the letter I am planning on giving DH. I changed all the names to the ones I use on here so hopefully it won't be confusing. I would love any comments, suggestions, advice and feedback. I really hope I am doing the right thing here, but it's being causing be a lot of anxiety to have this giant elephant in the room that I can't talk about. I tried to be as honest and tactful as I could, but I didn't sugar coat anything either. Thanks for reading every one and I appreciate your advice and support more than I can say!!!

Hello Everyone - I am new to the site and I have to get something off of my chest. I am the SM to SD5. She is a good kid for the most part but BM has always been an issue. DH and I are trying to have bio children but I am having fertility issues. I can't help but feel strong resentment toward SD and BM. Although I care for SD, when I see her I start to see her as a representation of what I can't have with DH...a child. I'm sure it will happen at some point but BM got prego by "mistake" after they had only known each other for a few weeks!

Court is this week. I am not looking forward to it. BM will show and is going to make all her allegations against SO.

She made a big deal out of sending me an email today to show she has an attorney or at least someone helping her. She's probably fvking an old man for legal advice, but that's besides the point. I already asked her NOT to communicate with me twice. This is the third time.

I almost wanted to remind her that she's messing with the wrong person in the leagl part, but I just left it alone. Another email to add to the evidence showing she's a loon. }:)

Hi everyone! I am so happy to have found this place. BM is a virtual stalker and stalks my FB page thru a 3rd party so I’m hoping she doesn’t find me here lol. I really need a place of my own to vent.

So a little background about me, bf and our situation. It’s LONG complicated and chaotic, but I will try to keep it as short as possible! I have 2 kids bios 13 and biod 9, SO has 2 also 2 boys 4 and 6.