Stealing, lying, and no remorse
Autistic Ss13 is never the most honest person, it doesn't matter what the stereotype says (e.g. autistic people can't lie). He lies and cries then throws a fit when he's caught and he knows he's lying. I feel there is nothing more we can do to make SS a better human being.
I don't know how to form a relationship (even a civil one) with this person. I tried to trust him and give him more than second chance and benefit of doubt. Each time only end up feeling betrayed and being taken advantage of. I freaking hate to see his face or hear his voice now, but there is no escape especially now.
I feel bad feeling this way, and I feel worse that everyone else in the family thinks we are doing a great job with this kid. I feel so fake. (We never do or post anything online to pretend how great we are doing. It is just people's kind comments having negative effect on us because we didn't feel the same. I said we, because DH feels the same as I do. That came out in a frustrating arguement between us)
I so much wish we don't have to live with him. I fear more that it might end with we stuck with him forever (because he can't freaking launch), or I leave DH (because as can't freaking launch).