I'm usually a pretty sane, confident, intelligent, level headed woman.

Last night, I was not. I'm not sure what got into me. It's like all of the logical thoughts in my head were replaced by studpid emotions that are completely absurd.

For instance:
LOGIC - My DH loves me completely and married me because he wants to be with me.
ABSURD - If BM made a strong enough play for him, DH would take her back so that he could have his kids full-time.

I haven't blogged a lot lately because frankly once I accepted that my issues in my marriage were pretty much all marriage related rather than specifically "step-related" (i.e. no crazy BMs, out of control SKs or CS issues here!) then I changed my focus from how to deal with my "step" situation to how to deal with my marriage.

BF and I have been living together for just over 2 yrs now and together close to 3.

The grass isn't always greener on the otherside! I left a 18 year marriage because of the verbal abuse my son and I delt with when DH didn't get his way, and the fact that we lived with his mom for 18 years :sick: Anyway, now I have an amazing relationship with someone I went to high school with, and we r getting married in 1 month.

My DH lost his job on Friday and still has not told his ex. I am really upset and hurt. It's like he doesn't want to stress her out but has not problem stressing me out. I am the one who is going to have to pick the mortgage (which he currently pays). I will not pay child support and he knows that so why he is waiting is beyond me. He finally went down to unemployment today and is going to court to modify his child support based on what his unemployment check will be. I feel like telling her myself but I know that would be wrong and possibly cause more problems but this is BS.

Y'all, I just don't want to go!

Every Wednesday, when FDH has FSS8 for 5 hours, my FDH says "let's go out to eat, FSS8 will like to eat Mexican/Buffalo Wild WIngs." Every Wednesday...same places. I'm over them. Not only does it teach FSS8 that when he comes over, we'll go out somewhere to eat (which causes a problem on EOW if we DON'T go out Friday and Saturday night as well), tonight I just don't effing want to go.

Sorry for my somewhat extended absence. I have been busy closing on a new house, moving, unpacking, setting up the home, getting all of the utilities turned on, etc..... My bride has been the one to do these types of things until now. She recently started with a new firm and I have been in Houston for several months before she got here so this time it is all on me to get everything turned on at the house.

A few weeks ago, SS had a HS dance. BM and DH went to go take pictures of SS at his GF’s house. While there, SS asked to have a picture with BM and DH at the same time. (I was not there)

Let me clarify, that I am ok with this. I can understand him wanting to have a picture of him, and his bio mom and bio dad.

Well, we had an issue this weekend where SS was a butt and I got him in trouble with his dad. My bad. lol

We had the skids last night and SD told us that she had to wear a coat and good shoes tomorrow (today) because they were going on a little field trip, and that her teacher told them to be prepared. I realized she had come to our house with flip flops and no coat because it was a nice day yesterday. DF called BM to see if she'd bring over the shoes and coat. Day care had also asked us where the shoes were for SS3 that "fit" because BM had squeezed his feet into a pair that were way too small on him. Miraculously, BM had no problem bringing over the stuff!

My fiance and I are getting married in a month. BM hates me for no reason and has been talking bad about me to future SKids. To the point where FSD asks me why her mom hates me, she doesn't even know me??? I explained that she hates my role in her life and it really has nothing to do with me as a person. I feel really bad for the kids, because it seems like they like me, but they often do not involve me in their conversations with FDH, they are very private, but polite.