Hi guys. I don't know why I keep staying with this man.  You all know his kids don't stay with us and are not nice to him. He asks me if it is safe for SD to keep her prom dress here because of the cats and what he should tell her .  I said we are also going to be having two bathrooms remodeled. He then gets all upset because he said he told her yes. I told him it is on him what he does.  He then gets angry at me saying how can he tell Her no now.  I then asked him his thought process on why he acts like this towards me. He said I am always against his kids.

Good morning. Still a little sick with coughing, but no body aches and fever, so thats a blessing. Slept fitfully, until aboit 10 am. Half the day is gone.

"Dont stop believing" song by Journey is playing as I type this out. The sky is a hazy dreamy soft creamy gray where the sun is trying to emerge, and fog is hugging the hillsides in the distance.

Recap:

Dec 24 Christmas eve. Not much news, calls to my younger brother about their plans to arrive Dec 25 and we should meet up, and we will play it "by ear" as to how Dad is doing.

My own phone has abandoned me.  Mom and dad arrived on the 20th for the holidays.

Anytime my dad tries to access Siri on his phone, my Siri answers him.  We sound that much alike.

My bride and my parents are ganging up on me.

I feel so unloved.  My bride is my parent's daughter.  My parents like her more than they do me.

Nobody loves me.

As you may know, Chef and I have a business together (sadly).  Anyway Chef, about couple years ago, grew very tired of a local supply house because the new manager was horrid and many mistakes were made.

I liked the old supplier because they just took a credit card as a point of sale instead of getting a statement at the end of the month and so many days to pay Etc plus they gave gift cards to a local grocery store.

What is worse-- when your SKs are overly polite and you sense that they are struggling and "coping" with your existence or when they are just real. 

I had a great Christmas with the skids and in-laws. SD21 drives me bonkers at times, but she's always respectful towards me now. SD18, who used to be my best bud a few years ago, had a hard time accepting our marriage. She's coming around. I think their BM found something else to occupy her time rather than making snide comments about me.

I'm a few provinces away getting ready for my dad's funeral. He was young (64) when he passed from Brain and bone cancer, within six months of diagnosis.  We were a bit estranged, but it looks like a ton of people are showing up tomorrow.

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I expressed to her I strongly dislike being. A step parent. It’s been a Brutal Christmas. I bought him a $400 steam deck. $30 robot, $15 volcano, $30 science experiments for us to do and much more shit. I did all the presents with him while she stood around trying to play with his toys by herself. All for his mom to need help with something else financially..

I'm sure most of you are aware of the absolute crap show  SD15 pulled the whole week of Christmas. She has not apologized for her behavior nor did she even reach out to DH to even tell him Merry Christmas. I have had my fair share of limits with SD, I tried to be nothing but nice to SD and I got pooped on, I tried disengage and it worked for a while until crap like this comes up and it absolutely unavoidable. I know it's not my right to tell DH that SD is not allowed here due to her behavior but I really really don't want to be around her.

We had such a fun Christmas. DH got me the CREAMi ice cream maker that he saw on TV Lol. It is a very uncharacteristic gift from DH but he thought I would have fun with it and he is right. DH was super cute and he froze me a premade mix so that I could try out the CREAMi right away. I have since made two types of ice cream and both turned out to be good. It will be really fun to use in the summer. I am going to try some healthier recipes next like frozen greek yogurt, fruit sorbet, and protein ice cream.