My actual birthday wish
Is that I don't have to celebrate it with SS. (I don't really celebrate, i really just want a day, a few days, without him)
But this is too mean and too much to ask for; I hope in 3 years it will finally be the way I've wanted.
I'm so sick of SS's lying (about everything, and he's never wrong), and arguing about his "rights" (none of his rights were ever violated). It's really funny even when we are "so abusive" and "violating his rights," not one day he'd like to move to his own mother. I wonder if it's possible because he also couldn't stand someone just like himself.
I don't know how to explain to this boy that his "sorry" is not magical, they don't heal wounds and feeling of betrayal. And he freaking have the choice and power to choose not to lie.
I really just want a bday only with people I care, but this is not something I can ask for.