My fiance keeps bringing up how unaffectionate I am with SD. I grew up in an unaffectionate household. I'm not saying its a good thing but it's why I get uncomfortable with any amount of unwanted or lingering touching. SD is needy like has to be touching you constantly needy and i cant stand it. I hold my babies and let them crawl all over me but I also have many moments through out the day that I can't stand them being on top of me. I definitely feel like a shitty mom when he talks to me about it but also I feel like it's not my fault her mom isnt in her life. I literally do everything for all of my kids and the touching is one of the only things I can't provide. My fiance told me tonight that I'm an adult so I should be doing it even if it makes me uncomfortable because she's a kid. I want to be the best mom i can be to all of them i really do. I'm not sure though if I can provide that sort of thing the way they expect me to. They want me to lay with her and let her sit in my lap but to me 6 is a little bit ridiculous to be sitting all over your parents. I dont know man maybe it's because shes my step daughter. I really feel like in my heart though that it's not that i dont love her enough it was the way I was raised. I love my step daughter so much even though she gets on my last nerve but i feel like that's never gonna be enough.