If you are reading this and feel the urge to tell me how shitty of a mom I am or that I’m not suited to be a SAHM please just don’t read this because I’m so tired of it. I’m not a perfect person and I have my flaws I am venting because I’m frustrated. I am in general a very level headed and understanding person. That being said the same occurrence has happened during both of my pregnancies where I can’t seem to keep my calm and patient personality, and instead become irritated and irrational. I know logically my SD isn’t acting out to get under my skin or make me mad. She’s gotten to the point that it feels almost intentional to make me mad though. With the lying, the disrespectful attitude, hurting her sister, yelling, throwing tantrums, the entitlement like I can’t get a break from any of it. It seems that lately the only way to keep my sanity is to just ignore the problems until they escalate to the point the have to be dealt with. Like when she literally yells in my face when she doesn’t get her way or pushes her sister down for the third time in a row. Even with not getting on to her for the first few times she still seems to stay in trouble. I have recently been trying more positive reinforcement because I hate seeing her stay in trouble, but even rewarding her when she’s good hasn’t helped with her at all. I want nothing more than to stay home and raise my kids because I enjoy it so much and I am usually very good at it.