I called SD a spoiled brat this morning. I couldn't help it. She sat around all morning and made us late to the bus stop and then lied to me about it. I was so mad. I said it in the house, i told her as we had to rush to the car, and then I told her again in the car. I was on a rampage. I couldn't contain my frustration at all. She finally told me as im rambling on about how were late and i had to run out the door carrying her brother and sister with out time to wrap them in warm clothes that i hurt her feelings. She's got tears in her eyes telling me she doesn't like when I call her names. It didn't even hit me until she was off on the bus how crappy I was being to her. I feel terrible. The guilt hit me like a baseball bat. Am I this frustrated because shes my SD? Would I do this with my other kids? Am I just a horrible excuse for a mother? Why am i like this? I don't desreve my kids.