Today was a great day with bio son he had show and tell at school and we took our dog in to that. It was so cute seeing the other children smile and ask tons of questions about the dog and you could tell that bio son was so happy. This weekend is going to be so nice as dh and I get to go out tommorrow night for a real date. Last night dh brought me roses and of course my natural reaction was what do you want. LOL SS has his weekend with his dbm and I miss him allready here.

Ok yesterday fdh became my husband. Gosh I know that everything said run, but my love for him and ss was too much, how can I leave when ss needs someone so much in his life that is stable. Did not do it for that reason alone please understand, I truly love dh and hope that this will last. It's so crazy at what I feel for dh, ss and more so for my own bio son, it's like a love that somehow someway I know is meant to be..

Ok today was the last day I have had it with the damn bm as far as my ss goes. We have had non bio daughter of my fdh for the weekend and the damn bitch only called to check on non bio of fdh.. Wtf... What about her own bio son who is my fss... I am to the point of calling it quits with the whole damn thing as far as everything is concerned.. I know I posted positive notes about fss but enough is enough and I am not sure how much more I can take here. Damn fdh treats non bio daughter as she is his own and fuck this. I can not take it..

As you all know we are going to meet my family this weekend, and I have been having issues with wondering what kind of step mom that I am going to be. I had been thinking about spending a week away to spend time with my family and when I asked fdh about it he said no.. When I asked him why I could not go, he said fss told him that out of all the people in his life that really cared for him the one who loved him the most was not even his real mom.. Talk about tears in my eyes when I heard that.