aaaand he saw my irritable side
So since my patch of hair loss scare I have totally cleaned up my diet, haven't touched a cigarette and am waiting on blood work results... which gets my anxious mind in a tizzy... basically I am on edge.
I have to fight the compulsion to keep googling worst case scenarios and checking my hair. I have bad anxiety and after my divorce it seems way worse. Funny, while I was living the nightmare the anxiety wasn't as bad. I guess I was too focused on him and his kids to worry about myself.
I stayed at my boyfriend's last night because his presence helps distract and calm me a bit. He invited me to take the kid with him to a play over at a neighbors house with their kids and I said no thanks, see you guys when you get back. (Interacting with the mommy next door wasn't high on my to do list while I am feeling low, as I am sure many of you understand.)
To get to the point: I should have probably stayed home. Even if it meant checking on my hair and having google fest 2018, it beat the night I had. His kid went to bed and then was up every f*cking hour on the hour complaining he was scared, he was thirsty, etc. and I got no sleep. No sleep and anxiety are a beautiful combo.
After the 5th time he got up and materialized next to the bed, I turned to my SO and said KEEP HIM IN HERE I AM GOING TO THE COUCH, hopped out of bed and slammed the door on them. He has never seen that side of me, things were awkward this morning.
He asked me not to say "keep him in here" next time because he has a no kid in the bed rule. Whoops, oh well.
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I was going to comment on
I was going to comment on your hair thing the other day. I lost my hair, around back, down low, on both sides when I was going through the most stressful time of my life. It actually occurred toward the end of the stress. All my hair returned with a vengeance. It's full and thick and no bald patches back there. The only thing I did was occasionally part my hair all over and I could see millions of tiny hairs coming in. It gave me a lot of body when they were about an inch long! Nobody but me noticed. Try not to worry to much, I hope your tests come out great.
Thank you for sharing. You
Thank you for sharing. You noticed bald patches and not only thinning?
It is hard to imagine stress can impact our bodies like this, but many people claim it does. I was under massive stress, that is for sure.
Hey, AJ, it can't be
Hey, AJ, it can't be moonlight and roses 100% of them time!
Is vaping an option for you? I'm talking about the NON-nicotine vaping. To keep myself from starting up again, I occasionally vape with non-nic juice. I also do not inhale.
Sorry, but the fact that HE didn't say something to his kid BEFORE the fifth time says something...
I gave up the vape along with
I gave up the vape along with the butts. It just never took away the craving for me.
He sleeps like a rock. Unfortunately a feather landing on the floor is enough to wake me up.
Mine was more of a nervous
Mine was more of a nervous habit than anything else. I needed something to keep my hands busy.
That feather, floating down, would wake me! LOL
AJ, hair loss arround times
AJ, hair loss arround times of stress isn't always uncommon. When I'm wigging out, I drop like a TON of hair. I have fine hair, but a lot of it. As long as you don't have enough to make a major bald spot, like bare down to the scalp, I wouldn't sweat it too much.
Also, I've noticed that taking showers that are too hot *insert meme of skeleton in the shower melting it's skin off* because for some unknown reason I like to scald myself. You can also wrap your hair in coconut oil and some plastic wrap. Leave it for 30 minutes and see if that helps loosen up your scalp any. I have to do this ever so often to recover from my showering tendencies.
And if it makes you feel any
And if it makes you feel any better, the first time SO saw me absolutely blow my stack was over my hair.
I was living with my mom when I first started seeing him and he was bringing me to work. I woke up late, didn't have time to shower. My sister also lived with my mother and ever morning she would hear my alarm go off and get in the shower-which was annoying. One day, I beat the little brat (ehm read 20) in there, but only had time to wash my hair. As I was doing this, quickly, over the side of the tub, this b hops into the shower in my mom's room which then made my water 3rd degree burn hot (which she knows happens-you'll either get no hot water or all of it with 0 cold). A hunk, and I'm talking two handfuls fell out on the spot.
I ran out of the bathroom, hunk of hair in had, my sister, whose shower was cold, was in a towl in the kitchen. I threw the clump of hair at her face and gave her an a$$ reaming I'm pretty sure can still be heard in some corner of the universe.
So him seeing your, statement and dramatic depature is nothing compared to the trauma my SO apperently experienced that day. He to this day, will gaurd our second bathroom when I am in the shower to keep the kids from flushing (and this doesn't happen at our house now).
You're okay.
Your story made me smile.
Your story made me smile. Thank you haha.
It is a bald patch, unfortunately. Like... bald. So... not sure what to think.
I am thinking my little fit has already been forgiven, he sent me a couple messages with no sign of being annoyed with me.
Aww, see that's good. And the
Aww, see that's good. And the "no kid in the bed" policy. A++
For a man who has a «no kid
For a man who has a «no kid in the bed» policy, he sure was patient, LOL! He could have told him not to come back at the 3rd or 4th time!
Ajanie, yes, my two spots
Ajanie, yes, my two spots were like the size of two thumb prints on both sides. You couldn't see them unless you looked. This also happened after I had each of my babies too. I promise I have a full head of hair now. Do some relaxation things every single day.
AJanie, just FYI....stress to
AJanie, just FYI....stress to the body feels like being "chased by a tiger". Stress prepares the body for flight or fight and because of that, your body knows you don't need the act of digestion, as that would require energy. All your energy is being used to "get away". Because stomach acid remains low, your protein (think B vitamins) are not broken down enough to be absorbed and you are experiencing nutrient deficiency. Keep eating well, chew well, relax completely while eating. Practice good habits for digestion and your hair will be growing back in no time!!
That explanation makes sense,
That explanation makes sense, appreciate it. I have completely cleaned up my diet. 98% of it is veggies, meats, nuts, beans and fruit now. I am also taking a multi vitamin and biotin. I did completely neglect my health the last year I was with my ex and the first few months after I moved out. I did not eat often enough, drank and smoked a lot and didn't take vitamins. I guess the things you can get away with in your 20's have more of an impact in your 30's. So I am trying to make these lifestyle changes permanent. Thank you!
AJ, that is great to hear of
AJ, that is great to hear of these positive changes you are making :)....regarding "getting away with it in your 20's"....LOL, actually you're not getting away with it...it hurts you then as well and then starts showing up when it gets too bad, like 10 years later, and BOOM, symptom city!!!!