I hate letting my SO down
My SO had this random idea he was all excited to share... to go (the 3 of us) to an indoor water park this weekend. Of course, I declined immediately.
He loves for me to be included and I totally appreciate that, I appreciate it so damn much, but screaming children, trapped indoors, in a urine-chlorine filled water park ... no. Just no. I would rather stand in line at the DMV. I would rather go to the gynocologist. I would rather do 8 hours of data entry at work...
You get the point.
I can tell sometimes that how blunt I am hurts him. He is a big kid at heart, he literally thought it sounded fun and I kind of rained on that parade. But I admittedly sometimes get mildly insulted he would even think I would want to do that kind of thing. Like, have you met me?! I have 2 days off per week, WHY would I want to do THAT? Can he think from my perspective for once? Things are always so child-centric. I don't know. Nothing new, its the way it is for all of us sometimes.
The 2 of them will still go, but I cannot help but feel a little guilty that I just cannot bring myself to suck it up and go.
I spent years sucking it up. I just don't want to anymore.