It's abusive, period.

I've been watching this show online over the weekend. Before that, I caught bits and pieces on TV here and there but never followed it, so I started from the beginning and am just into season two now.

For anyone else who watches this, is it just me or are Amber and Gary heartbreaking? Or, more appropriate, my heart breaks for Leah in the middle of so much hate and anger.

My Saturday started at 7am. I had to drive into town to get my daughter. That was the only thing that ran smoothly.

I get home at 8:30 and have to be ready for skids football game by 10.

9 year old SD can't get herself ready to go...she wants me to help her. Why a 9 year old can't dress herself is beyond me, when her cheer leading uniform is all laid out for her. I have to get in the shower, so I get DH to take her to BM.

I'm running late now.

I go to the game...alone...without DH and have to deal with BM (who is a snotty bitch)

Friends, family, kids...they all work to lift us up in need. But the kindness of total anonymous strangers?

Wow.

Last night I got BD 4 back and our plans didn't work out b/c I had the date wrong for the Halloween event I was planning on taking her to.

So we went to Friendlys.

So who here has 50/50 week/on week off custody? What are the exchange times/days and why are the times/days good or bad? We currently do exchanges of SD at 6pm Sun, but don't think it is the greatest setup. Now that SD is in school, basically it's a rush to feed her dinner and get her bathed and ready for bed. (We get up at 6am to get ready for school.) Also there's the fact that no one parent really gets a full weekend with her. We're thinking either the parent getting SD picks her up after school Fri or Mon.

We wondered if mom actually had a job, like the child support agency said she happens to have now, why hubby wasn't getting any of the payments, we were informed at the end of last week that BM apparently has informed child support and social services that she regained custody of SS6 and that is why there was a block on hubby's child support! They couldn't tell us exactly what the document was that was rec'd, it may have been a forged/changed copy of our court order which is one of the only documents that these departments will accept.

Ahh! My SS is driving me crazy. He is 6 and has been acting like a baby since he found out we are adding to our family! He is being a little jerk to be honest. He has been asking for a baby brother or sister for months and now that he is getting one he is acting out. I can't imagine what he is going to do when the baby actually arrives! DH doesn't want me stressed out but the SS is doing everything to push my buttons. He won't even listen to DH.

Mary Chapin Carpenter's
The Last Word

You can have it, I don't want it, and when you've got it, I'll be gone
It won't matter what you're saying when the damage has all been done

Can't seem to keep the faith, as if that's all I need to do
I'd rather walk away than take what belongs to you

You can have it, I don't want it, and when you've got it, I'll be gone
It won't matter what you're saying when the damage has all been done

My fiance went out of town this weekend with SS3 to visit his parents. He had agreed to take BM's daughter and SS on Sunday night when he got back even though it wasn't our night. (If you read my last blog, BM wanted to go to a sex toy party and was planning to drink...whatever)

BM gets PAS in every way she can think of.

We have to bring specific complaints to court and have it written in the CO that she can't do this or that specific behaviour, as in she is prohibited from discussing emotions when she calls skids.

Well, she's getting more creative.

Sooo, since my first entry my bf and I had a bit of a blow out. I've always heard that keeping your feelings bottled up would drive one insane. I feel like I was heading toward major depression, but last night the bf and I had it out. Amazingly, it was wonderful. I think partially because we never fight. He pointed out that I get on SD for every little thing, which to an extent, he's right. I do. She is 4 and I should lighten up a little bit. I just feel like if I give she's going to take more than I'm actually giving. She's famous for it.